Last post for 2011...

Well, it's the last day of 2011. Looking back, it has been a rather "short" year. Left for Adelaide to pursue my degree in Feb and it's already the end of my 1st year in Uni. How time flies... Aging is a natural process, but striving to look young is a rather painful one. But hey, it wasn't my fault to be born vain in the 1st place. Hahaha!

Just hope the new year will be a happy one. I've had enough of all the sorrows and endless emotional turmoils. Just wanna be happy, and be surrounded by genuine people. Let there be peace & harmony everywhere.

If there's anyone else reading this at all... Happy 2012 to you.

Boxing Day...

It's Boxing Day, and all I wanna do is punch and "box" that A**HOLE who scarred my heart so badly 18 months ago. Oh well, just like the dogs, every SLUT will also have its day.

Met 2 of my cousins today & we had seafood for dinner. Was great to catch up. At the end of the conversation, I just realised I was not the only one who had issues with Love. They had all seen their fair share of drawbacks, being the affected parties. I just began to wonder if we were the only "losers" around, forever giving our all in love, only to be dumped or timed or worst, taken for a ride. *Sighs*

And... it's only 5 days before I fly off to the land of the Taj Mahal. Would I manage another post before 2012????

New Year's Eve...

I'm gonna start by saying, New Year's Eve was an awesome movie! It's my personal opinion, and I really enjoyed it. Having said that, I think... an appropriate New Year's Resolution for me would be to update my blog religiously! Ok wait, not religiously but maybe, regularly on a weekly basis at least? LoL! I started blogging because I wanted a venue to express my feelings & thoughts. And it definitely seems to be a diary at times, the posts serving as reminders of incidents and memories. One thing I know for sure is that, I'm probably the only one in the world who types posts as if there are people to read my blog! Haha! (That "Haha" seems wierd now, especially when I know it's purpose in the future, would just be a reminder of my action when I typed the sentence!)

It's gonna be my 4th week back in Sg... Lots of sleeping and eating so far. I don't seem to ever get tired of sleeping! I can literally sleep for a day and still take naps the next day! Managed to meet a couple of my close ones. Had dinner with Ian & his parents, had a 10hr shopping spree with my beloved Strawberry, spent a great evening with Rafie...
Previously, I might have felt dejected that I met so little people given the considerable amount of weeks I've been back here. However, I actually feel a sense of satisfaction that I'm meeting those who really matter to me and those whom I really care about. I'm probably becoming wiser, or maybe, am beginning to actually grow up. I definitely think very differently these days. I still am emotional, oh hell yes! But I guess I have matured enough. to know when/how to show my emotions or whom I should share them with. Something memorable actually happened during the outings. My friends sub-consciously said things that actually made me realise why I cherish them so much. I'm lucky to have them in my life.

That propmpted me to do something small on my part. I thought I should come up with something nice to say about those who are close to me, and post it on their fb walls on New Year's Eve. I'm flying off in the morning on that day, so I've gotta make an extra effort to make sure I get it done! But then again, it's only a handful so I should really hit myself if I don't get it done!

I have this strong feeling that this might be my last post for the year... Hahahahaha! Oh well, I guess I can manage a Christmas post & double that as a New Year one as well. :-)

A Wrong Click...

I had actually typed a very long post about the Perth trip & my birthday celebrations but a wrong click erased everything.

And I don't feel a pressing need to have to recollect or re-picture the whole thing again, as it's pretty pointless.

Anyways, the beautiful memories have been etched in my mind forever.

Thank you Roja, Matthew, Brandon & Justin. :-)

The July Vacation...

Well, since her return to SG in Feb, my mum's husband had been standing on one foot that he had to visit Adelaide & etc. He was firm on his decision that I was to return only at the end of the year. Well, something seems to have changed his mind. He told my mum to ask me to return to SG for the end semester break in July! It'll be for approximately 2 weeks. It's definitely reason to jump for joy but suddenly, I don't feel like going back...

No wait, before anyone jumps to the conclusion that I've adapted so well in Oz & etc... That Isn't the reason. 2 weeks surely isn't a very long period of time. Before I know it, I'll have to leave the comforts of home and return to the country where I'm practically "Sooo Happy". Of course, it'll be great to catch up with my mum & sis, my beloved cousins, the Very Few True Friends I have and devour on all that uniquely Singaporean food!! But, it just so happens I'm not good at controlling my emotions. And Farewells are Definitely not my thing! (Those who came to send me off in Feb will know exactly what I mean). Gosh, the tears & embarrassment! Maybe I don't really bother about the embarrassment, but the feeling of parting with the few people I'm so comfortable with was just so painful & I don't think I'm ready to go through it again...

I've got to make a decision soon. And the plane tickets aren't at their cheapest. I've gotta book them by end April and the dates I was looking at seem to be in demand. It's the school holiday period, and I'm not the only idiot who has the option to head home... 

Maybe... it wouldn't hurt to head back & see the people I miss so much... Or would it?

The Shopping Trip & Beyond

OMG! I had soooooo much fun today! Why?? Cos I went SHOPPING! Haha! Well, it was the 1st time I was hanging out with Nadiah & Jae out of school. (They're my seniors at Uni btw). I didn't think it was gonna be sucha blast! We seriously had a thing for shopping! We just seemed to be able to connect and I guess that's the most important thing when it comes to hanging out with people... 

We went to Harbourtown, it was my 1st visit there. Boy was it a good shopping trip. I ended up with 4 pairs of sandals, 2 bottles of perfume, 4 shirts and... I'm lazy to type the rest. We were literally encouraging one another to shop, with all the motivation whenever each one of us stepped up from the changing room! We had fish & chips and Kebabs for lunch/dinner. Awesome food, & an awesome day out...

My intention wasn't to rattle on and on about the shopping trip. I couldn't believe that I finally went out with people after 2months++ of going out alone to shop & etc. It's overwhelming, really. When I got home, I started to tear... I felt so vulnerable to loneliness in a foreign country. And lonely I've felt for so long. 

I do know myself well. How long I take to get to know people, how long I take to get close to them. It's not that I'm being extra uptight these days, but the last ordeal I went through with one person, seems to have permanently changed my opinions about getting close to people, or let alone, trusting them. It's so wrong to just come to a general conclusion/conception about people after a horrible experience with one, but I just can't help it. It was too much to bear, whatever I went through... Seems to be futile to attempt to leave the whole incident behind.You just can't. It's never possible to leave the ones whom we cared so much for. God knows how they do it so easily... Do I wish I was like them?? Definitely Not. I mean, I'd rather have character and work on having a beautiful inside, than to display characters like those as*es, which will shame their mums. But then, it's a totally different issue, if the mums in question seem to have questionable characters themselves. Talk about upbringing... :-p

Random Typings...

I was thinking about how blogging started, and the various reasons people have for blogging. Like a couple of famous as*es back in SG who call themselves Star Bloggers (do I have to mention Stomp???). Not All, but Majority would want their blog to be a reason for conversation of any kind. That cheap thrill of knowing that writing personal thoughts/opinion would bring about a large following, a fan base. Or even taking delight in having created a controversy. Basically, anything that grabs attention and shouts the existence of the pathetic being! 

My reason for still having a blog is pretty much the same as to why I started in the 1st place. This page becomes active when I don't have anyone I can talk to. Simple as that. Or when I can't trust anyone with my feelings. It really is a great relief to vent my frustrations/feelings on something that doesn't make me regret it. For starters, it can't give me biased comments, let alone communicate with me...

I was gonna go on, but I'm not feeling too well. Fever's my best friend, accompanied with coughs. I'm not feeling too well emotionally either... 

God... Help Me! Pls...