Hair....

wow... this would be the longest break between my posts. more than a month!! hope u guyz r doing fine... well, how has the year 2005 been for me? many ups.... no, little ups and many downs! it has alwayz been the case anyway. imagine this scenario. you pay $200 bucks to get ur freaking curly hair rebonded... you dun even get to keep it for a full 2 months. and the finale? you cut it short!!! yes, i'm the ass in which it happened to... very lucky yeah.. soo damn angry and sad. i'm 18 for haven's sake, and i dun even have the choice to do what i want to myself. yeah, it happens when u stay wif ur parents. until u r married, you have to listen to them. so what happens to an ass like me who thinks there wouldn't be marriage for me?? listen to them all the way?? for god's sake no!!! singles can only buy a flat after 35. wat's the point? having already lost much freedom. they should change the age requirement to say, 20++. it would really be a boon to many. I would definitely buy one. the money for it??(you noe, they've got loans for everything). here i am, wallowing in self pity about the demise of my beautiful long tresses. i mean, yeah, i do agree that i looked feminine wif tat hair but, i liked it! i was comfortable wif it, tat's wat mattered. but, whoever cares abt wat i like? i've alwayz been forced to do things that pleases others. or in particular, the authoritive figure in my dwelling. i really look soo kuku wif this hair. it's short... real short, u noe.. those school boy kinda looks. but, i guess since i'm gud looking, i'll be able to carry it off... ok ok, i noe u ppl are throwing up on ur monitors already and cursing at me.. hahaz! i'm laughing at my own nonsense.. how pathetic... but making self degratory comments isn't something new to me. i'm a jinx, fatso, pimply-acne face &.... ok, tat's enough for now. too much bad publicity is no gud.. the moral of the story is, i miz my hair. it'll take months to grow back to that length.. till then, i'll just have to wait patiently. sigh...

it's been more than a month... hope u guyz r doing well. well, unfortunately, this isn't gonna be a happy post. i'm just totally angry & sad. i have been buying my own clothes & stuff for some time. I always use nets to pay. my dad checked my bank book last week, and was furious i had spent soo much. the thing is, i didn't touch my savings. i only spent from my salary. but i do agree that it was too much money to spend on clothes and shoes. he hasn't spoken to me since. it's not like i care. he has always ignored and neglected me. my sis has alwayz been his favourite child. so, i just dun give a damn. even on normal days, if we spoke, it would be either to run some errands for him, or to answer his questions. he told my mum i'm acting to be quiet and afraid of him. the thing is, tat's how i am. if he can't even understand tat, then i really can't do anything. he insists i've done the greatest fault. but he really should ask himself if he is a gud father... to me, he has never been & never will be. in fact, if he's gonna ignore me totally, i'm not going to bother. i'm used to being someone in oblivion. he ignoring me makes no slight difference as it's nothing new at all. really hate life. i read of so many ppl dying young. why can't god take me? i just dun wanna live. i see no point nor purpose. my dad feels tat things would be better without me. he has made known public countless times on what a failure i am in studies compared to my sis. how ugly i am and etc. used to be embarassed & shy, but won't be anymore, cos i've faced countless humiliations. i'm gonna follow life's course, cos nothing can be changed if it's fated. don't tell me abt suicide.... cos i'm a failure at that too. i've made 3 failed attempts before. let's hope that since the present is dark, the future will be bright.

hi ppl. how have all of u been doing? hmmz, i learnt many lessons within a short time. someone asked,"to wat extent would you go, if asked to do something for a loved one?". i was tempted to say, "i would give my life", but didn't actually. many of us wouldn't think twice about going all out to see a smile on the face of our loved ones. however, would it be the same case if you weren't loved in the 1st place? tat was the next question tat was put to me. i was thankful i hadn't answered wat i had wanted to say! well, the series of questions tat followed were more answerable(if there's such a word!). i don't really wish to dwell into who was the one who questioned me or wat the other questions were. wat matters most is, we cannot be complacent. we shouldn't take things for granted too. yeah, some of u might already be thinking,"look who's talking!". yes, i've made my fair share of mistakes and had made some wrong choices in life. but it doesn't mean that i cannot change. it takes time to look at things from a different point of view. anyway, there is never a right without a wrong. i've done some wrong, now it's time to search for some right. i'm forever jumping into conclusions and makng hasty decisions. perhaps, if i had thought things through, it would have been much better. whichever idiot said looks mean nothing in this world must have been very good looking! if not, how would he know the suffering of the ones who wouldn't score in the looks department? i have never felt bad about being ugly till recently, when a series of events made me ponder about how i look. things would have been better if i was better looking. no no, it was wrong for me to have wished for something way beyond my range & reach. have said quite a bit, & am not in the mood to say much more. take care ppl.

Will you be mine?

i really love you soo much. you are my life, my soul. i really can't live without you. when you said he was different and i was different, i was broken. but weren't you the one who said that you and i were not different? was it a lie to pacify me? i tried to let you go, but i know it's impossible. it hurts soo much. i'm crying inside. you mean soo much to me. i want you. i need you. is it wrong to have wished you to be mine? or was it wrong for me to have met and loved you in the 1st place? i'm clinging on to the hopes that you will accept me one day. but if you will find happiness otherwise, i will always be happy for you. the 3 words you told me will always be in my mind and heart. i will cherish them. i love you with all my heart. will you ever be mine?

Hurt

why did you do this to me? surely, you didn't have to hurt me like this. do all of you think my heart is some playground to play with? has the word love become so cheap these days? why did you say it in the 1st place? to lead me on with false hopes? or because you just needed me to shut up? so, was whatever someone told me true? why did it have to be you? i just feel soo hurt. i can't concentrate on anything. i just can't seem to forget. the more i try, the harder it gets. i'll never get over this. please, i really do love you. i just can't get over you. surely you aren't that heartless right? i have cried badly before, but this is the worst... i just feel soo low. am i tat inferior to you? i've got soo many questions. can you enlighten me? i need answers... from you. please?

If Only I Was the One you loved...

hey ppl... hope u guyz are all fine. hmmz, i did attend tharshan's birthday party on sun in the end! it was quite fun, although i couldn't eat most of the food(including the choco cake tat was soo tempting!!) cos mostly non-veg... sigh.. hey, but guess wat? i actually participated in the karaoke! hahaz! not bad for someone who would even think twice to speak in front of ppl.. but at least i got positive remarks, so i didn't feel too bad.
i was speaking to someone on the phone today morning. well, didn't hear from the person for 2 days in a row. it's hard when someone just refuses to accept that he/she has changed or is behaving unusually. the conversation drew to a stand still in no time, not taking into consideration the many disruptions. after some thoughts were exchanged, i was brought down, literally down. how could u say i was distancing myself away from u? it just striked me tat u were trying to keep away from me. i just didn't expect you to say ur close friends took rights over u & i didn't. so only those who take control over u r considered ur close ones huh? which literally means, u haven't even considered me as a close friend in the 1st place! yeah right, just because i placed u in a place up high, i can't expect u to do the same. just hope u wouldn't tell me one day tat u didn't even consider me as a casual friend. u noe, ppl are capable of anything. it's just soo hurting, my heart's aching. you refuse to voice any discontent u have, then what am i expected to do? from the way u spoke, i know you wouldn't even bother if i didn't call/messaged u. you may even be jumping for joy. you've got many "close friends" to keep u occupied, or maybe because, i just haven't meant anything to u. oh ya, maybe an irritating/boring ass who gets on ur nerves all the time. tat's wat i am to u. haha! gosh, i'm in such a state where i can laugh at my own stupidity & ill luck. how pathetic... but i ain't an ass who would wallow in self pity. i'm always drowning in my tears, nothing new to me. too bad my luck is such, having to go through hell, loving those who hate me, doubting those who sincerely do love me. no use swearing at god too. guess it's gud old fate doing it's job.
as i wrote to you before, i wish, i wish, i wish....... tat i was the one u loved. but i guess for me, wishes & dreams remain as they are. they'll never be a reality for me to embrace.

hey ppl... how have u guyz been doing? well, i've had stuff which did keep me occupied... let's see, went for lunch wif wan yee to billy bombers last week.(the cookies & cream shake was heavenly!) oh yes, thanx to wan yee, i had an mp3 player too. then it was starbucks for coffee with cam & hidayah abt 2 days back... was really nice to meet up wif them. went to toys r us to look for presents for my cousin. but ended up buying huge roses for sis! anyway, just glad they still do remember me. it feels gud when ur company is enjoyed u noe? hahaz! we did take neo prints(i wasn't interested of course, but was forced to by cam). she sure is one persistent lady! just wonder y i find it soo weird to take pics. muz be some defects in the genes yeah... great, i've started my crap!!! it's tharshan's birthdae this sunday. was invited thrice! daddy also asked if i would skip my lesson & attend the party. hmmz, y is my presence suddenly appreciated so much? maybe because they know i'll splurge on presents even if i dun like them? it has got to be it, cos invitations to almost anything these days, comes wif expectations & stuff... well, i may go, so as to not deprive the kid of an extra parcel to open. but on second thoughts, dun see the need to, especially at the expense of a lesson... well, it definitely depends on my mood. only on sunday will i know wat state of mind am i in... but then again, i was personally invited. just look at the mess pll like to get u in. fancy having to do something against ur interest and liking... it would seem an obvious snub if i refuse to attend. it just also dosen't help tat i've got a reputation for being..... (ok, let's face it) arrogant & ignorant at times. i do show my disdain openly too. i'm definitely not the typical ass who belives in hypocrism. i wasn't brought up tat way. yes, some in my immediate family just make perfect hypocrites, but i've learnt to be unlike them. definitely something to be proud of... hahaz.. k ppl, i'll stop here for now. will continue soon... take care!

hi ppl... hope all of u r fine. well, i said on my very 1st post itself that i'm gonna be using this as a means to vent my anger & frustrations. i also did mention that i would be as indirect where possible. but if u r too intelligent & can always find out who or what i'm referring to, then i guess it's just an added advantage for u. but if u r gonna take tat as a means for u to question me, then i'm terribly sorry. i dun see the need to explain myself. i do have my own personal comments at times, & it's not a must i've gotta let the whole world know wat i'm thinking!! i am sacarstic, ugly, stupid. yes, i dun deny tat. but weren't u the one who befriended me in the 1st place?? where was ur eyes & "intelligent" senses when u approached me? i really dun think i was any different at that time! u r just making a fool of urself. i have got nothing to lose. anyway, i would rather be labelled a "loner" than to be associated with an inhumane being like u! gosh! u just give me the creeps... i've got issues. so does each and everyone of us. we can't be sharing everything to everyone. it's the same with love, friendship & etc. u may love someone to such great depths, but u can't expect or be sure that the person would love u to the same extent. it's sheer luck. it's gotta be it. if not, i wouldn't be sitting here voicing my unhapiness to an object that would never converse!! sigh... i really dunno if i should change myself. i mean, if i'm expected to change for the better, wat do u want me to change? my looks department can't be helped. but i know i've been pretty outspoken lately. if u guyz prefer the shankar who was soo quiet & silent, i have no qualms changing back. in fact, i may have more peace if i shut myself from this harsh & unforgiving world.. not forgetting to mention the "wonderful" beings who strive to make their presence felt. i haven't been happy for a long time. even if i was, it was shortlived. i'm alwayz confused & worrying abt stuff. just hope i wouldn't have to call IMH(institute of mental health) my home anytime soon! would there ever be a day when my post is a happy one? one that is free from unhappiness & anger???

hey ppl... how r u guyz? had a great weekend actually. met up wif wan yee & hidayah @ city hall. we went to suntec city to see some exhibitions. well, of course we did shopping. me being myself, had 2 pairs of sandals to bring home!! hahaz! it's just great to own many pairs of footwear. can't understand why some ppl just hate shopping for shoes... on sun, had maths lesson as usual. went to auncle's place in the evening. it was supposedly a gathering. yeah, those pot-luck kind cos the hosts are too stingy & lazy to prepare food!! if tat's the case, why do u even bother hosting one?? anyway, the food was ok because it was cooked by dif ppl. was speaking to lavan. rarely do u get the chance to speak to ur cousins... seenu(my 4-year-old cousin) noticed my eyes & asked me, "wat muz i do so my eyes will also be purple?". all of us in the room were laughing. he was just soo cute & asked the question soo innocently. i told him that all he should do was just look at things which were purple! hehe! the smart boy knew i was just teasing him though. all of us left together around 9.30pm... had a nice time.
well, was thinking abt my friends...(as usual) we make friends to keep them, in a hope tat they will be there for u when their care & concern is needed. but in my case, everything seems to be terribly wrong. my best fren is always busy wif stuff, & rarely calls me/answers my call. even an sms from him can be considered prized! divan does send emails so often that i can't complain... on the other hand, my other friends just seem to disappear into oblivion! u would hear from them for 2 days, and after tat, they would have forgotten me. of course, i'm not trying to say i'm someone who has to be remembered. the thing is, i'm trying to console myself by saying i made wrong choices. u see, it's easy to blame everyone else. i dun wanna be like tat. i'm always telling myself tat i should exercise caution when befriending new ppl so as to prevent future heartbreaks, but i never seem to be able to do so. it's hard not to trust someone who seems nice on the 1st introduction. well, how am i supposed to know the posers from the gud-natured souls? guess i will never change, so i'll just have to make do with "friends" who are passing clouds... sigh...

a fool i am...

hey.. hope u guyz r fine. we had prayers @ home yesterday & most of our relatives were present. happy to see my cousins & all. well, wat else shall i say? i chatted wif pin. well, it's the 1st time he chatted wif me for so long. well, glad to noe he trusts me.
i'm not feeling happy. i'm confused as usual... if u tell someone tat u will ignore him, & he also seems to be contented with it, wat would be ur opinion be abt him?? i mean, to me, it just means u have been putting on a fake front all the while & pretending to be nice. ur "care & concern" was just part of ur acting skills. but i admit i'm impressed by ur acting talents, because i actually believed & trusted u... but, i didn't expect u to be capable of such heartless deeds. it just didn't occur to me tat u were like tat. i just can't accept the fact because ur words were soo beautifully phrased... u just feigned everything perfectly. wat a fool i have been....

A Walk To Remember...

hey guyz... it's soo gud to be able to be speaking again! i mean, for those of u who didn't know, i had a bad sore throat & lost my voice on tue!! i was literally whispering... god knows what was the liquids i gulped down to cure my throat... imagine being plagued by a severe headache & sore throat. aargh!! anyway, i really will remember this day. shahrul & i walked from hougang point to compassvale drive. it took us almost an hour an a half. wat made it memorable was, we started the walk @ 2.00 am!! hahaz! well, we chatted abt many things along the way... really enjoyed his company. shahrul really is a nice guy. i actually got to know him much better after the walk...
someone actually told me that i have a very arrogant face that puts ppl off... so i told the soul who had a ''humble face'', tat i could do nothing abt it. well, the ass then said that i was arrogant too.. hehe! i was in glee, for i was in a perfect mood for an argument. i feel that arrogance is just an obvious display of confidence. i have said many times before, i wasn't born with gud looks or intelligence, & god made up for it with lots(& i mean lots) of arrogance! how the arguement ended isn't important. the thing tat matters is, i won... an arrogant ass i may be, but i am compassionate. anyway, no one needs to understand me.. as long as i know & be true to myself, i'm contented.
i was just thinking, would i be very arrogant if i was handsome & intelligent?? hehe! take care ppl...

Thinking....& thinking...

hey ppl... well, i really seem to leave a huge time frame between my posts! envy those who are free enough to update their blogs on a daily basis. same routine week. have been visiting my baby angel weekly since she was born. i love her loads. wish i could see her more often though. i have been thinking abt many things lately, literally thinking in all aspects. it's quite normal for me to do so, but i guess i over exerted my mind this time round. but it just didn't help that many things made me start thinking. u guyz muz be wondering wat an ass like me will be thinking abt. hmmz, abt my friends & "friends", relatives, studies & many other stuff.(of course, including stuff tat wasn't worth giving a second thought!!) it's at times like these i've got to agree with the few geniuses who feel i'm unintelligent!
i haven't been feeling well the past few days. very bad headache...(with special thanx to the accompanying emotional heartbrake.) i just cannot understand ppl. yeah right! i can't even understand myself in the 1st place, how am i going to understand others? guess i was just fated to be this way, to have friends who remember u only when they see u, & to totally ignore u when u need them the most. a kind soul emailed me a few days ago, asking why most of my posts seemed to have been written when i was feeling down. wat touched me most however, was the person's last sentence. it read, "... dun worry abt the friends u already have. i promise to try my best to be there when u need me." i'm not ashamed to say i shed tears when i read the email. i mean, it made me realise that there were gems out there who were waiting to be friends, but yet to be discovered. it feels great to take comfort in the fact that u have a friend who is there for u... sometimes, it's not all abt forging new friendships & realationships. it dosen't help if they all turn out to be short-term acquaintances... also, it definitely does good to cherish those who care & think abt u... it's pointless to realise their value & cry in despair after they have left u.
but again, how do u know who treasures u & who doesn't? many, & i mean many, have mastered & perfected the art of feigning care & concern. i won't blame those who lost gud friends because they couldn't differentiate the pretentious ones... i really pity them.

Importance & Priorities

hey ppl... it's yet another post. yeah, it has been some time since i blogged. actually, i was more keen in reading the blogs of others!! hehe! typical kaypoh u may think... but i had far more meaningful intentions. i was sourcing around to see if there was any fellow being who was not happy wif life. i mean, ppl start blogs to voice their opinions, & more often than not, it's abt their woes & etc. so here i was, trying to see who had the saddest tale of all.(yeah, i'm kaypoh here!)
actually, the only thing i look forward too these days is visiting my cutie baby angel(it's my baby niece for those who think i'm referring to a babe!!) just seeing her sleeping soo beautifully is enough to take ur worries away. just love cradling her in my arms. gotta thank my aunt yeah...
well i was chatting wif hui ming, & inevitably, the topic on eric wong surfaced. wat she said was very true. it does more good to look at the positive qualities of someone & like them, then to magnify their shortcomings & detest them. it's extremely easy to understand, but the same cannot be said for following it... it's always easier said than done.
this person i know is extremely nice. i don't wanna name him, cos it's already bad enough that i'm showing my dislike for him directly. a georgous looking chap who has a brotherly love u can sense. a really nice guy, but it's just tat he cannot accept the fact that he isn't given 100% importance. it's this character of him which diminishes my whole outlook of him. it's hard to look at his positive qualities. they just seem to be a constant reminder of his true intentions. yes, an elder brother he may be to me, but i can't forgo anyone or anything just for his sake. it's not that i'm unkind/heartless, it's just that, some bad behaviour shouldn't be tolerated for the well being of a person. they have got to change to be a better person.
bro... i still do love & respect u. it really is up to u to think everything through... u've gotta understand that i'm not doing this to insult u, but it's because i care for u, my brother...

What A World...

wat a queer world this is... hmmz, had ups & downs the past few days. anyway, wat's life wif only ups & no downs? but if it's gonna be all downs, than it's pointless for life to be lived!! ok, i've started my crap... pardon me yeah.. spoke to vikki for an hour on sat @ 1am!! nvm the time, it flies when u speak to him. really enjoy his company. nice fella. love him lots.. guess i have been harsh on him a couple of times... well, another person has been causing distress for sometime already. wonder when he'll get a piece of my mind...i have to learn to control my emotions. displaying them may not be a feasible decision... didn't know it would cause problems. anyway, wat do u expect in a typical old-fashioned country? where ppl's thinking date back to the centuries... gosh! it's pointless to be a modern civilisation when the mentality & thinking is ages old!! even loving someone of the same sex is mocked & ridiculed at. questions are raised abt morality & stuff... cummon guyz, dun ppl love their parents, siblings & etc? so wat is wrong in loving ur friends of the same sex? if tat's the case, i'll only have to befriend girls! nah, not a feasible option. will have to put up with the label of "flirtatious character" or "feminine tendencies"!!! i just have got this to say, instead of striving to widen knowledge & intelligence to large extents, it may be more useful to expand mentality & thinking capacities!! a very funny world indeed....

some stuff to be happy about...

hey ppl.... my niece made her much awaited arrival yesterday! she's soo pretty & cute... soo happy. i had fun too yesterday. met wif wan yee & hidayah. well, hidayah was late as usual. wan yee & i had to order 1st as the waitress had already approached us for the 3rd time!! (we were @ pizza hut) wan yee & i were unanimous wif the choice of pizza. hawaiian lovers. well, i was reminded of someone who also liked this flavour. sigh... let's not dwell into tat person's hstory now...
anyway, the pizza arrived & there still was no sign of our "punctuality queen"! she finally arrived 30mins late. but there was no apology, she tucked in right away!! haha. gud old hidayah was still the same. miz the times we went out together as sch mates... wan yee is still as pretty & slim but claims to be fat! typical girl thinking... we had fun, chatted during our meal, took a couple of pics, walked around, and even took neo prints!! gosh! the last time i had taken those was 3 years ago... how time flies yeah... anyway, all gud things have to come to an end. the time came for us to say our gudbyes & we parted...
anyway, hope u guyz have a great weekend ahead! have lotsa fun! till my next post, byez...

Life....

So ppl... how has it been going for u guyz? hope it has been pleasant at least for u all... it's been quite tiring for me, both physically & mentally. well, some of them thought tat something was wrong with me & asked wat happened. i told them i was being as i always am & smiled. but who would have guessed how much it pierced me to give that smile... it's just very difficult to remain confident when things around u seem bleak. it's even worse when u see problems in all directions & not a single soul to lend a helping hand, let alone a listening ear...
this just leads to another major confusion. friends. i definitely have done wrong somewhere. was it the way i chose my 'friends', or the conditions i set? it has to be the latter... i muz have been a fool to trust everyone who 'looked' trustworthy. u will never know a person till u have been with them for awhile. i have only selected frenz, not a whole big lot of acquaintances. but tat was also wrong because these selected few just didn't deserve such value. but i shouldn't & shan't blame anyone. cos it was my fault for selecting such ppl in the 1st place. it really defeats the purpose of friendship if u consider someone ur close friend, but he just treats u like another person he knows. it's not his fault at all, but ur very own for selecting someone like that. i have been hurt a million times but have still not learnt the way to select friends whom u can know for sure, will be there for u throughout their lifetime. maybe, i should just learn to treasure those who care abt me. even if i dun like them, i should begin 'cultivating' feelings towards them.
just look at my life... really hope no one will be just as unlucky. treasure your true friends... u will only know their value after u have lost them... i'm feeling so down. darn my luck!

Blah Blah Blah...

Hey... it's yet another National Day again. I'm not a patriotic freak therefore i'm not showing any enthusiasm. You can't blame me for it anyway... I'm someone who doesn't even think much abt the day I was born... so I can't be expected to be bothered to spare a thought for the nation's birthday!! Anyway, being my sacarstic self, "Happy National Day".
I was speaking to Hui Ming again yesterday. So glad she was there if not I would have been bored to death! Thanx to dear Shahrul too. Wonder wat happened to dear Pin Pin. He was suddenly displaying his foul temper. Anyway, he claims it's sch stress & etc. Later, he told Hui Ming tat he was hasitant to speak to me always because he felt that his english was bad! It's not like my english is soo fantastic... he just didn't have to feel inferior. Anyway, i've spoken to him & voiced my opinions. It's now up to him to follow his heart...
Honestly, I haven't been myself the past few weeks. So many thoughts are running through my mind... i really dunno if some of the things i'm doing is right/wrong... I'm confused, feeling strange & insecure. When will I be enlightened?

Gimme A Break!!

Hey ppl! hope u guyz r fine... it's been some time yeah. Well, it has been a rather eventful week, cos many things happened... Loosing some ungrateful ppl who labelled themselves "frenz"! Finding a confidant whom i'm comfortable with..(thanx Hui Ming) and unfortunately, showing my ugly side to some! My acceptance of crappy testimonials on friendster dosen't mean that I accept trash! Anyway, i'm not in the mood to forgive/accept apologies. Who am i to do such stuff anyway?
Well, i realised that it was just not good to be nice & kind and that it doesn't pay to be soft hearted!!! Some ppl just dun deserve to be treated well! I mean, humans are supposed to understand one another & try not to hurt feelings & stuff.. but tat's not the case most of the time. My gosh... i'm beginning to wonder if everyone is like tat, or is it just sheer unluckiness on my part where those around me are .........(fill in the gap with wat u think deems fit)

OMG!!! I Own A Blog!!!

Well ppl, the blog fever has taken its toll on me! So I am finally a proud owner of a blog... Hmmz, what do i say on my very 1st post?? Well, I have told myself that I shouldn't hurl direct insults at people here. I'll try my very best to be as indirect as possible if I have to... Hehe! I am just being honest cos I'm definitely going to use this as a place to vent my anger & frustrations!! So I guess that it is only logical for me to apologise in advance to anyone who is going to feel hurt in future after reading my posts. My sole intention is not to hurt you but to feel a sense of relieve.
Anywway, I think that's all I have for now... So till my next post, Byezz!!!