So ppl... how has it been going for u guyz? hope it has been pleasant at least for u all... it's been quite tiring for me, both physically & mentally. well, some of them thought tat something was wrong with me & asked wat happened. i told them i was being as i always am & smiled. but who would have guessed how much it pierced me to give that smile... it's just very difficult to remain confident when things around u seem bleak. it's even worse when u see problems in all directions & not a single soul to lend a helping hand, let alone a listening ear...
this just leads to another major confusion. friends. i definitely have done wrong somewhere. was it the way i chose my 'friends', or the conditions i set? it has to be the latter... i muz have been a fool to trust everyone who 'looked' trustworthy. u will never know a person till u have been with them for awhile. i have only selected frenz, not a whole big lot of acquaintances. but tat was also wrong because these selected few just didn't deserve such value. but i shouldn't & shan't blame anyone. cos it was my fault for selecting such ppl in the 1st place. it really defeats the purpose of friendship if u consider someone ur close friend, but he just treats u like another person he knows. it's not his fault at all, but ur very own for selecting someone like that. i have been hurt a million times but have still not learnt the way to select friends whom u can know for sure, will be there for u throughout their lifetime. maybe, i should just learn to treasure those who care abt me. even if i dun like them, i should begin 'cultivating' feelings towards them.
just look at my life... really hope no one will be just as unlucky. treasure your true friends... u will only know their value after u have lost them... i'm feeling so down. darn my luck!
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