hi ppl. how have all of u been doing? hmmz, i learnt many lessons within a short time. someone asked,"to wat extent would you go, if asked to do something for a loved one?". i was tempted to say, "i would give my life", but didn't actually. many of us wouldn't think twice about going all out to see a smile on the face of our loved ones. however, would it be the same case if you weren't loved in the 1st place? tat was the next question tat was put to me. i was thankful i hadn't answered wat i had wanted to say! well, the series of questions tat followed were more answerable(if there's such a word!). i don't really wish to dwell into who was the one who questioned me or wat the other questions were. wat matters most is, we cannot be complacent. we shouldn't take things for granted too. yeah, some of u might already be thinking,"look who's talking!". yes, i've made my fair share of mistakes and had made some wrong choices in life. but it doesn't mean that i cannot change. it takes time to look at things from a different point of view. anyway, there is never a right without a wrong. i've done some wrong, now it's time to search for some right. i'm forever jumping into conclusions and makng hasty decisions. perhaps, if i had thought things through, it would have been much better. whichever idiot said looks mean nothing in this world must have been very good looking! if not, how would he know the suffering of the ones who wouldn't score in the looks department? i have never felt bad about being ugly till recently, when a series of events made me ponder about how i look. things would have been better if i was better looking. no no, it was wrong for me to have wished for something way beyond my range & reach. have said quite a bit, & am not in the mood to say much more. take care ppl.

Will you be mine?

i really love you soo much. you are my life, my soul. i really can't live without you. when you said he was different and i was different, i was broken. but weren't you the one who said that you and i were not different? was it a lie to pacify me? i tried to let you go, but i know it's impossible. it hurts soo much. i'm crying inside. you mean soo much to me. i want you. i need you. is it wrong to have wished you to be mine? or was it wrong for me to have met and loved you in the 1st place? i'm clinging on to the hopes that you will accept me one day. but if you will find happiness otherwise, i will always be happy for you. the 3 words you told me will always be in my mind and heart. i will cherish them. i love you with all my heart. will you ever be mine?

Hurt

why did you do this to me? surely, you didn't have to hurt me like this. do all of you think my heart is some playground to play with? has the word love become so cheap these days? why did you say it in the 1st place? to lead me on with false hopes? or because you just needed me to shut up? so, was whatever someone told me true? why did it have to be you? i just feel soo hurt. i can't concentrate on anything. i just can't seem to forget. the more i try, the harder it gets. i'll never get over this. please, i really do love you. i just can't get over you. surely you aren't that heartless right? i have cried badly before, but this is the worst... i just feel soo low. am i tat inferior to you? i've got soo many questions. can you enlighten me? i need answers... from you. please?