To CGH Ward 39 on Mon...

Well, IMH posting was over on fri. It was a day I wished wouldn't come too soon, but, ALL good things come to an end eventually. I stress on the word "ALL"... I had mixed feelings/thoughts when I signed out there for the last time. Never would I be attached there as a student nurse again. There might be chances & opportunities to be there as a Patient or staff, but not as a student. I was someone who was waiting to be over & done with the course, but with time I just wish life as a student would never cease continuation. The advantage of the clinical lecturer to protect you, staff being nice to you, being taught new things. All these just passes as clouds, when you become a staff. Back-stabbing, standing for yourself with no protective guardian like a lecturer. And the only new things you learn are what you find out on your own. Differences as vast as the oceans... But I guess it's part & parcel of life, fate, destiny & anything else along those lines...

I've got mixed feelings about Monday too. Starting 4 weeks of attachment at CGH Ward39. God knows what's in store for me. A particular new addition to the group irks me to no known limits! That annoying size, back-stabbing hypocritical attitude! Hate him to the maximum! I pray, & thinking calmly, God might have a reason for having that ass in our group. Let's just see the game He's planned...

I'm gonna meet my Yerumai(Buffalo) tomorrow, Finally after like 8 weeks! Hopefully, it turns out well. Or should I even care if it turns out bad? Because it's good enough if we get to meet! I just don't want anything to go wrong. Both of us have been through alot emotionally & it's more than just taxing to the heart! The past has been rocky & thorny, it's only fair that the future is a bed of roses...(Maybe blue roses?) Haha!

The Long CNY break....

Had I blogged tomorrow, there would have been a week's interval between my posts! Hahakz! Anyways, the past 6 days were rather eventful. CNY visitings, gatherings, Great food, and definitely not forgetting my rather long arguments!

Finally got to flaunt That shirt on CNY! Hahakz! I was kinda waiting on my heels to wear it! I took those who saw me on that day by surprise, because I was wearing white bermudas! I decided to sport a casual look, since the rest of the population who'd be visiting would be decked in formals or their festive best. Surprisingly, I received positive comments on the way I dressed that day. I was ubber comfortable with the way I looked...(& that's super rare).

Note To My Bestie: Was really touched by whatever you said after our argument da. I mean, during your usual sleeping time, didn't expect to hear nice, touching, sentimental stuff from you. But after a long period, I knew that I was hearing things that was coming sincerely/genuinely from your heart. I'll alwayz be there for you da...

I must've piled up on extra kilos over the long break, because I was practically stuffing myself with food! From Pizza hut to fast-food, from CNY feasts to Birthday treats. Gosh! The weighing scale is my worst enemy now!

IMH posting is really fun & educational. I've learnt alot during these 2 days. Sadly, attachment there's coming to an end on friday. Will really miss the place alot, not forgetting some of the friendly & helpful staff.

Note to the person who said "IT" was my call: I really have got nothing more to say. I don't think you'd treat me any better. The way you speak to me & etc... It's hurting. I guess you've read my posts which I wrote from 2years back. I guess sincerity doesn't work these days. Well, I guess whatever I say wouldn't affect you in anyway either. I've decided Not to decide. If I'm a useless friend, or just an extra speck in your life, I've got no qualms about parting. Your decision.

Chinese New Year..

Happy Chinese New Year! It's the eve, & marks the start of a long break! YaY! IMH attachment was really tiring today, even though it ended at 10.30am. I had to bathe 47 patients! Thank god Arthur was there. But it was a great experience though. An experience that would make me a better nurse for the years to come...

I have been looking at things very differently recently. I've begun to understand & accept things whenever they go wrong. A bad incident actually teaches us a valuable lesson. As they say: Once bitten, twice shy. An embarassing incident, or one that puts us in a bad light, actually humbles us greatly. Shankar's talking about humbling experiences. God! How I've changed...

And to the person who assured me that I'd have company on the phone back from IMH: It's not the 1st time u're not keeping to your word... Definitely not. Guess I've been very patient with you. Was just telling you on monday night about settling issues & you sticking to what you say. Unforunately, whatever I said must have fell upon deaf ears. Or rather, practically & sensibly speaking, Sleeping ears... You claim to care & bother about whatever's happening between us. Is this how you support your claim? I really don't know what to do or say. I don't even know if you're being true to me. If I'm nobody to you, & mean nothing at all to you, you've gotta tell it straight to me or I'll never know. MEAN WHAT YOU SAY. It'll solve many problems... I'm leaving it to you.

It's Chinese New Year visiting tomorrow! Should be heading to the temple 1st, then it's off to my aunts' dwellings. But being so fickle & in the midst of unexplainable mood swings, I might just choose to stay home and rot & sulk. Or maybe not, I'd be out to have fun in the name of celebration & reunion. It'd be a chance to flaunt my new designer shirt as well! For goodness sake Shankar, It's Chinese New Year! Hahaha!

To IMH On Monday...

"Hey!" to all reading my post. Attachment ended at Ward 38 on thurs. It was a great ward actually. The Sister was great, really encouraging & motivating. Learnt alot, especially since it was a cardiac ward(Medical conditions to do with the heart). We went back to sch for SIMS training yesterday. I had to do role-play for every scenario! Darn my luck! But I enjoyed Mrs.Joanna Tang's session the most. Didn't know she was capable of so much comedy! Starting attachment at IMH on Mon, 2 weeks of travel headache again. Sigh... It's a great place to work in, but the distance to travel is a drawback. Almost similar to the experience of KKH. But if given a choice to work between IMH or KKH, I would choose the latter... IMH posting is gonna be real fun! If only they paid us, it'll be cause for double happiness...

I was supposed to be fully occupied during the weekend. But I'm super free now. The reason? I cancelled all my meeting plans with my frenz, for NO apparent reason! Just felt the sudden urge to be reclusive & isolated. It's kinda scary, because I feel like i'm becoming more like how I used to be. Arrogant, quiet & totally ignorant about anyone or anything. I'm not heartless though, I felt really bad when my frenz were asking the reason for my sudden cancellation of plans. How could I possibly say I'm just plainly uninterested? "I just can't make it", was my curt reply to all I had spoken to or who had questioned my decision. Painful, but I didn't have a choice...

This paragraph is for the 2 asses who claimed to be hurt because I'm ignoring them: I just don't see the point or any need to care about the feelings of people who have got no regard for me. Whatever you said might have been in a fit of anger or an accidental slip. Whatever you both said, delibrately or accidentally, is of no matter to me. I have made up my mind, that I don't wanna have anything to do with you both. That's it. I have already made clear my decision in this paragraph especially for the both of you. I consider both your phone calls and smses a parasitical nuisance! I'm not tolerating Anymore of such nonsenses, & don't blame me for whatever that comes out of my mouth If you try to approach me in public hereafter. You know how sharp my tongue can be. It's time to part. Take care, & goodbye.

It's CNY next week! Kinda looking forward to the long break. And not forgetting the goodies & red packets. Can't wait! I guess I've typed a little too much, because my fingers are feeling strained! Hehe! Till my next post, take care people. :-P