The X'mas Week...

Hey ppl... It's been a rather eventful week. I had the greatest time of my life on X'mas eve. Went over to Kabi Maadu's place & thawned the whole night there. We watched Harold & Kumar: Escape From Guatanamo Bay. It was hilarious! Kabi rented the vcd & wanted me to watch the show because he said the show reminded him of us. As in, he resembled Kumar, whereas my character was likened to that of Harold's. It was quite true actually.... Hahakz! We had dinner, Uncle drove us around & bought us breakfast too, Mcdonald's at 4am in the morning! Hehe! It was after a very long time I was spending time with my beloved Maadu. We chatted about so much even though we were both sleepy. It seriously is great to have a Bestie like him. My selection didn't go wrong after all... :-P

Dearest Rachel didi invited me over to her place for X'mas. Ok, maybe I should also state that I was invited to many parties on X'mas. But I was tired as I hadn't slept the previous night, & seriously was only interested in going to Rachel's place as I felt she had the highest priority amongst them all. I went over with my mum in the afternoon. The X'mas tree in her house was really nice. The food was good too. Was nice to see her after a long time. But unfortunately, I couldn't catch Isaac. Had to leave soon as we had to go to my grand-uncle's house as well. Oh, I was pleasantly surprised to receive a present from Didi. Hehehe! Hope she liked the pendant I got her... Her parents are really friendly, & Rachel's mum was chatting so well with my mum. Friends in the making I suppose. LoL! It was rather uneventful at my uncle's place, I was really so sleepy that I actually fell asleep on the couch! It was the first time I dozed off on someone's couch! I was kinda embarassed actually. They offered me their bed to sleep, & I slept without disturbance till 10pm. *smiles*

I practically slept the whole of 26th December! Erm, ok.. to be precised, I was rolling in bed till about 5pm before I decided to get up! Hehehe! I met Kabi for dinner at about 7pm. Managed to chat for about 2hrs before he left to meet his friends. I do not wish to elaborate on what else happened on the 26th...

Went to Ramar temple in Changi in the morning on 27th December. Was very crowded, but it felt peaceful. Had lunch at Changi Village before going home. I met Vikku Yerumai at about 4.45pm I think. He came down to Tampines quite early but due to some unforseen circumstance, i couldn't meet him early. As usual, he had to leave soon once I met him. I have no idea if it's a twist of fate or just sheer coincidence, but Vikku always has to leave soon after meeting me! Maybe I terrify him so much that he can't bear to spend much more time with me. LoL! The Yerumai bought me a book for X'mas. Personally, I really love getting books as presents. As the saying goes, "A Book Is A Present You Can Open Again & Again". Was really happy to see him after quite a long time. At least he was in a good mood & I had fun with him. I got him a shirt, really liked the design & thought it would suit him. But I dunno his taste well, & still dunno if he likes his present.

I met Kabi for dinner again. Actually, the meeting was just an excuse for me to pass him his X'mas present. Hehehe! Bought him a shirt from United Colours of Benneton. Their shirts are made of the most comfortable material I think I've worn. Glad the Maadu liked it. Bought him & Pavithra donuts when I went over. Was nice talking to her for awhile after a long long time too. Got reminded of the thawning period in the past... Hopefully everything would be back to normal soon. :-)

Kabi's Birthday Pics...

Kabi's Birthday Cake... We Bought It From Han's, Clare Akka's Choice.



The Shy Birthday Boy... Hahakz!


He'll Be My Bestie Till My Time's Up... *Winkz*

Uncle, Clare Akka, Joycelyn & Me....

My Present To Kabi... Sneakers From Converse. Glad He Loved It.

2 Movies In A Weekend.

Sighs.... It's Sunday again! Ok ok, I'm not gonna start lamenting on how I feel about booking-in. I guess I've complained enough in many previous posts already.

Kabi would be back from Bintan tonight. He left on Thursday morning, definitely a much deserved break after his POP. But I couldn't wish him for his birthday yesterday, unfortunately his hp doesn't have roaming services. It was a good thing Clare akka & me planned to celebrate his birthday in advance last week. I seriously miz the yerumai loadz. Gotta wait till next Saturday to see him. Waiting for him to call after reaching.

Went to watch Rab Ne Bana Di Jodi on Friday night at 11.25pm, it was the opening day of the movie. Seriously, it was a wonderful movie. The new heroine is beautiful, and Shahrukh's acting is 1st class. A love story told in a very different way. All girls would pray to have a husband like the character in the movie. But it was the points & dialogues about love in the movie which really hit home. Seriously, I think I've began to look at love at a different angle. I've again realised that, It's not about expecting reciprocative love in return of loving. There's actually more pleasure in Loving someone much more, without expecting any love at all. It's hard, but it was so well potrayed in the movie. Love is such a beautiful thing... But It's just so painful & hurting at the same time...

Last night, decided to bring my mum & sis to watch Journey To The Centre Of The Earth 3D. It was really good too. More for the effects actually. But I still find that $13 per ticket is a bit high for the movie. But experience wise, it wasn't that bad after all. We actually bought tickets for Ram as well, he said he wanted to come, but he msged at the last minute to say he was unable to make it. In short, I wasted $13. Not a very large amount, but it's still significant considering how meagre & pathetic my NS pay is! Some ppl..... *Frowns*

I guess that's all for today... Till the next post, take care ppl...

My MSN Nic...

Ok, the total number of people who have queried me on my MSN nic has grown tremendously. Tremendously to the extent where, almost every new conversation box starts with "What's with your nic?". If the conversations don't actually start with that line, it would definitely appear in the following lines... Funny, because that has been my nic for as long as I can remember!

"ATOP THE TOMB OF LOVE & FRIENDSHIP, I SHALL DANCE WITH DELIGHTFUL GLEE..."

Well, the sentence itself is quite straight forward. "Tomb of love & friendship" just translates to both forms being dead. The accompanying sentence is self-explanatory. It's just that way because, it's a fact of life... or rather, the fact of My life. I mean, I'm not going to pin-point at any one of my friends(or whatsoever they may be, since they're ALL the same, they fall into the same category!). They're all great people in their own rights. But it's just that, I don't consider Friendship as a life-long bond anymore. I mean, in today's context of life, everyone is busy with our own gains, happiness & etc. Who do we blame if we find that the people we call "friends", just aren't there for you at any particular point of time, especially when they're most needed? Which just brings another question. Should my friends understand me? Or am I supposed to understand them & compliment according to their characters? I mean, understanding each other is how it's Supposed to be, but that's definitely out of the question.... I'm not gonna say anything about love, it's a personal battle not meant to be blogged about.

I guess I've taken the effort to explain myself, & the MSN nic for the matter. I can't be bothered about the rest in my contact list, but for those who read my blog, I expect NO more questions or opinions on the nic anymore. Thank you.

Some Random Pictures...

That's Us at Sentosa, Sharvin & Tharshan are missing from the pic....


The Cool Dudes....(My height was compromised due to the slope!)

We didn't need much strength to carry him!

This is Specially for Ash! The Blue eyes became Purple for a day! Hehe!

Shopping After A Long Time...

Hey guyz! I'm not gonna have any long salutations, & am just jumping straight into the happenings for the day!

Took the 11am ferry out of the "damned" island. I met Suren at Orchard today. It was total fun hanging out with him! We had lunch at Takashimaya, some western food(I seriously forgot the name of the restaurant!). The mushroom soup was heavenly.
Note to Desmond: And I finally bought a brownie today from that brownie shop! Woohoo! It's only $3.80 but tastes really good! Gooey Chocolate with nuts... Heavenly! Hehehehe!

It was raining damn heavily, my poor Bonia sandals were drenched in water! Soo sad! Favourite pair of footwear... Sighs... Ok that's besides the point. Managed to do some good shopping today after a long time. Bought a shirt from Takashimaya(Erm, it's black in colour as usual ;-p). I seriously think the colour Black was just created for me. The depth of it's darkness, the grandeur of it's mystical hue. It's just so made for the Special me... Ok ok, I'm crapping already. Hahakz! Back to the shopping, we seriously walked alot. Crossed over to Paragon, my "clothes haven". We were both deciding on which shirt to get from Raoul, I've picked a few, and I presume they should be in my wardrobe by the end of the month. Do I recall my mum reminding me about the number of new shirts I have which are waiting to be flaunted by me??? *Winkz* Hmmz, it would never kill to have a few more extras would it?

We had a good chat during the shopping too, catching up on the times since he became a dental assistant. He was the guy who helped me with my Tamil in SMTI. I mean, the only language I sprout fluently is English. It seriously takes alot for me to speak in Tamil all the way. He tried his best to get me conversing in Tamil, but apparently, my English won hands down! At this point of time, I just want to let the smart asses who condemn my Tamil all the time know that, SHANKAR CAN READ & WRITE TAMIL VERY WELL! I only have a mini problem in speaking it coherently, without sounding funny. Hmphx!

Hahakz! So much for my mother tongue... Well, Suren said we'd be meeting up soon again, might even be as soon as next weekend! I seriously wouldn't mind. Time actually flies when I'm with that joker friend of mine! But I have got plans for the weekend already... Let's just see how things go.

I'd definitely give priority to meeting those who sincerely want to spend time with me most. I had just about enough of asking people if they're free to meet & etc. Some blame me for not bothering to meet them. Some don't even have the basic courtesy/decency of replying when I ask! Whichever the case, I'm not gonna let these asses ruin my precious time when I'm not in camp! My time is seriously a previledged luxury. Can't I just ORD now??? Sighs.....

Pulau Tekong...

Hi guyz... Since so many of you have been overwhelming me with your concern about how I've been after my posting, this short post is just about that....

MY POSTING TO PULAU TEKONG AS A MEDIC...

Yeah, the Capitals says it all, my disdain for the posting. It seriously isn't the kind of place you'd wanna be in. Picture this: You train for 9 weeks as a medic, go through all kinds of tests and examz. You're given hope that you'd have a stay out posting at the end of it all. And when you recieve your posting, you realise you're gonna be staying in. Which means a Saturday book-out, and a Sunday book-in. Isn't it such a "BEAUTIFUL" scenario???
I've been having sleepless nights since Day 1 at Tekong. Sighs... I'm not gonna start complaining, because I'm never gonna stop if I do! SIGHS.... Well, on the brighter side, they always say everything happens for a reason. And from My life's lessons, when things go awfully wrong, God has got plans for something else! Hopefully, I'm struggling now for future to be abliss...

It's Sunday Again...

Sobs! It's Sunday again.... Sobs and wails! I've gotta book in tonight! I try very hard not to complain on Sundays but the moment the day arrives, I just can't help it. Sighs....

My dearest Vikku called me today after like so many donkey years! Ok, donkey months to be exact! Hehe! I was sleeping, and when I saw his no, I thought I was dreaming for a moment! Funny fella, still the same overly self-cautious guy. He's a corporal now, something seriously to be proud of. I do miz this buffalo of a friend I have at times, but it's just that he's tooooooo busy to entertain me! And I stress on the words "toooooooooooooooooooooo busy"! The last time we met was at AMK Hub, before I enlisted. The gundoo was soo quiet, as if in some emo mode. Hopefully he'll be free enough to meet up with this friend once in a while...

P.S: Vikku, if you're reading this, you should know who you should be planning your next outing with! Hahakz! *winkz*

I just had my lunch. Mum's cooking is seriously the best. I don't think I intend to take an effort in mentioning about the food served in the camp's cookhouse. Maybe it's nice after all, but just not to my liking. I classify it under not-worth-mentioning.
It's down to the last week of my medic training By next wednesday, I'd have known where I'd be posted to for the rest of my NS period. Looking back, it has been a long, ardous journey. The I/V sessions, the pain, punishments, exams, tests.... It seriously is an achievement on its own accord. I'll definitely miz everyone in the platoon, wether they were liked or not. Afterall, Memories of a lifetime aren't only alwayz made up of cherished people...
I'm hoping for an office hour posting, so that I can pursue night classes. I really want to study, and at least achieve a good level of education. One reason is to make my parents proud, another is a personal challenge to prove my self-worth. I'm hoping to get my driving license by next year. God-willing, hope everything will go smoothly...

Mini-Leo akka smsed yesterday. She was planning a picnic at Sentosa at the end of the month. She was saying it was really long since all the cousins met up together. It's kinda true. I really hope all of us will be there.

I'm thinking of the song lyrics "Uravin perumai pirivil kandu, uyiril paathi kurainthaen". Translated in English: My life's worth was halved, when I realised the worth of relatives after seperation. Maybe my translation is not good enough, but in Tamil, the sentence hits the heart directly... Take care ppl.

Sunday Blues...

Damn... I'm suffering from Sunday Blues as usual. I seriously hate Sundays for a very obvious reason. I've gotta book-in to camp at night... Nothing can be more sickening than that to me at this point of time in my life! I seriously find that serving the nation for 24 months is a total waste of time. I'm seriously not the patriotic ass who would go all out to fight for the country & take pride in dying valiantly in the process. Instead, I would go all out to secure a ticket for the next flight out of the country if the need arises! Haiz, the only thing I can do is to sulk & blog...

Had so many guests at home last evening. Dad thought it was a deepavali open house but we had actually planned a 50th Birthday celebration for him! Hehe! He seemed very grouchy at 1st, when he was called to cut the cake. All the guests noticed his expression too. God knows what he was thinking, but at least eventually, he started smiling. Baby Sriram is like soo adorable! He looks like Casper(the friendly ghost), with his round head & big eyes. I wish I'd have a chubby child in the future as well. Hehehe! Kamala sitti & Vani aunty chose to come after all the guests had left, it was almost 10.30pm when they arrived. Chatted with Ram & Tharshan for awhile, & we called it a day.

Oh, and my back condition has been deteorating lately, and I do not know the reason. But I didn't tell my mum about it as I don't want her to worry. I didn't know that the back could hurt this bad... Sighs.

It's time for lunch ppl... And before I know it, it'd be time for me to book-in. Take care guyz, while I start wallowing in self-pity about having to serve NS! *Hmphx*

Just 2 Pictures...

Seriously, I think the Brightness for this year's Deepavali came from my Orange Sherwani suit! Hahakz!

The dessert I enjoyed at Fish & Co. Hot Fudge Chocolate Cake With Vanilla Ice-cream. Salivating yet?

Post-Deepavali

Before I even say anything else, I take this opportunity to wish the Hindus who read my blog a belated "Happy Deepavali!". May the year ahead be a prosperous & fruitful one. Be happy always, and may good health & wealth be aplenty!

Hmmz.... Back after a one month break from blogging. It wasn't that I didn't have time. It was just that I didn't feel like blogging at all. Deepavali was rather dull this year, except for the only brightness being my outfit that was in Orange!! Hahakz! It was really boring, & the irony was that none of us cousins got to bump into each other! We were just at the wrong houses at the wrong times... Sighs... But I was happy to go to my favourite grand-uncle's place. He's the only relative whom shows genuine love, care and concern to me and my sister. Another reason for a dull Deepavali was the very fact that I had to book-in to camp early the next day. I just wasn't in the mood to celebrate...

We had night's out on Wed & I finally had the chance to go to Fish & Co. Went to the outlet at AMK Hub with Clement & Leuter. We had a great time eating & laughing! I even ordered dessert. Who cares about my diet when the food is so good?

Ram came over last night. We had soo much fun! We were laughing ang giggling all the time. We chatted for quite some time, then went to Macdonald's at TM at around 1am for dinner! We came back again and wrecked havoc till he left at around 4am. Really a funny fella who made my day...(or night rather!)

I think I'm ending this post here... I'm feeling sleepy. Yaaaaaawn... Take care people.

A Medic In The SAF...

I got posted as a Medic, at Nee Soon camp. i do not know if I'm happy or sad at the new camp. Yes, I wanted to get out of 4SIR at Lim Chu Kang badly, but now that I'm out, I'm missing the place like crazy! It really is true, the pasture is always greener on the other side... The food and bunk here is beyond my description. It's just not to my liking at all. But they guyz are great, my bunk mates are a fun lot to be with. The sergeants are not too bad as well, but I can't help but miss those in my previous camp. 8 more weeks to go... I'm hoping to get an 8am-5pm posting after all this shit. Just hoping for such a miracle to happen.

Met up with Clare yesterday to fetch Kabi from Pasir Ris interchange. It was his 1st book-out. He still looks the same, and the hair-cut suits him well. We had a great time talking together with uncle. Kabi wasn't feeling that well, and was quite tired. We had coffee at starbucks before leaving for home. It was already quite late, so I sent Clare back to Boon Lay and took the same train back to Tampines. We spoke quite a bit on the train ride. She's just like another sister to me, & I hope she'll have her happiness soon... Waiting for the next meeting so that the 3 of us can have a blast again!

I seriously enjoy the time I spend together with them. Kabi has changed so much now, more caring and concerned. He's becoming more like how he was when we became Besties. Just hope it's how he's gonna be... Clare has also changed alot. In fact, all the reservations have gone & we were chatting like nobody's business while waiting for the maadu to book-out! Well, I'm enjoying their company now, I just don't want anything to change...

Gotta book-in tonight, and that will indicate the start of my long wait till the next book-out. Gosh! Is this how my next 2 years is gonna be like? I'd end up booking a permanent place at Hougang Chalet!(Institute of Mental Health) God!!! Please save me!!!

My Last Day Of Leave...

I'm feeling extremely moody.... Why? Because today's the last day of my block leave! SOBS! I've gotta book into camp again tomorrow morning. And yes, that same sickening feeling creeps in as usual. Actually, that feeling has become a routine for me during book in. 2 years to go.... Gosh.... How is it ever gonna pass?

My Hong Kong trip was a blast! Had so much fun Shopping! From Fashion Street to Men's Market, I shopped like never before! I bought myself so many shirts that I lost track of the quantity! Hahakz! I would have indulged myself in a shoe-buying spree as well, but my luggage was already filled to it's maximum storage possible & screaming out for more room! And the food! Boy was it cheap... I had as much as 10 egg tarts at one go. And they had this pork burger at Mcdonalds that was awesome! Yes, all their fast food restaurants serve pork and they tasted really good! (It wouldn't take a fool to know by now that the weighing scale is my enemy.) I really had so much fun with my mum. Laughing at everything, oh and I've gotta mention photo-taking. I took pictures like crazy, as if tomorrow never existed! But, don't tourists always have the advantage of taking photographs almost anywhere, no matter how nonsensical and still get away with it? *winks* Here are some pictures I took there...

That's me at "The Peak" in Hong Kong, the highest point there.

Shopping at night, that's Esprit's Flagship Store behind me...

My main reason for touring Hong Kong, LV's Flagship Store!!!!

At Hong Kong International Airport.

Well, I'm waiting for Kabi's 1st book out. Feel excited for him actually... Just glad he's coping well. I guess thta's all I have for this post. Take care ppl.

Before Kabi's Enlistment

I FINALLY met my bestie last nite! I booked out at around 9pm. It was the 1st time we were booking out on a Friday night. We'd usually book out only on Saturdays, so the bookout was cause for excitement for everyone in the company.. I shared a cab back home with Quek. And yes, almost all of my NS allowance is used up for my cab fare to and from the camp!!!

I walked in the middle of the night to the yerumai's(buffalo in Tamil) place. But it was kinda cool to be walking under the train tracks alone. Didn't have to bother about the traffic lights as I was the sole occupant of the roads I was crossing! He'd ordered Mcdonalds for dinner. Uncle came back at around 2am. Was really nice to see them after so long. The 3 of us spoke till 7am in the morning before I left. I was struggling to keep my eyes open as I was dying for sleep!

Met him again at about 6pm today. We had kfc this time round! Had to satisfy the cravings for Zinger! LOL! My obsession for food will only die with my soul! Hahakz! Uncle was at home too, he was sleeping. It would be the last time I'd be seeing him before he enlists for NS on Thursday.
Note to my Bestie: You'd definitely be fine da. Don't worry about anything. You're physically fit, and have your way with people. Work it right, and you'd be through BMT phase with ease da. All the best maadu! You'll alwayz have Clare & Me behind you da. We'll be waiting for your 1st bookout to have a blast! Take care pannu.

A Random Entry

I finally heard my bestie's voice after almost 3 months!!! But no, it didn't bring back any fond memories of the past, nor did it cause a breakdown. I felt a tinge in my heart when I answered the call, but it was probably due to having mixed feelings. There wasn't enthusiasm in his voice, which of course he has no reason to show, but maybe.... maybe it's just Me. I didn't feel like I was talking to my Bestie at all... That feeling of closeness, that bonding of rights over one another, they were all absent. Why???

Is it because my 3-month absence from his life hadn't changed him abit, or has the same period of time caused Shankar to be oblivious towards the most minute feelings he once had?

Well, had a meal at Pasta Mania with my sis today. We rarely get a chance to go out together. It was a combined lunch and dinner, had creamy chicken spaghetti. It's my all-time favourite. Tried their potato salad, which wasn't to my liking. Had a good chat, and came back home. I wanted to be home by 9pm to catch the last episode of "The Defining Moment". It's a Mandarin serial on Channel 8 that features Fann Wong & Pierre Png as the leads. (Yes, Shankar does watch Mandarin programmes). It's my favourite, liked the ending although it was totally predictable. You know, those happily-ever-after kinda fantasies that never occur in reality.

I'm wondering if there was anything significant to blog about...... Oh yeah! Vikku smsed me on one of the days last week. It was a short sms wishing me a speedy recovery. I was touched, seriously. I mean, yeah it was a random sms but, to think that he was actually so thoughtful...
Vikku, I don't know if you're gonna read this, but I just wanna say Thanx for your thought. It meant alot to me... Thanx da! :-)

I've gotta book in by 3pm tomorrow. That same sickening feeling of having to go back to camp creeps in all the time... Sigh...

(P.S: Ash, The Blue Eyes are doing fine! Hehehe! And I've decided they're gonna remain blue! Hahakz!)

Continued....

Well, so that's a glimpse of how my NS life is going... Oh, and I haven't mentioned about not coming to terms with an almost bald head!!! It's nerve-wrecking! AAARRRGGHH!!! I don't wear a cap when I'm out, cos my parents and sis said i look like an "oorukaaran"! Extremely humiliating, so I decided against wearing a cap for my entire life!

Oh, my parents are on a month-long trip to India. It's a temple trip, to pray for my back's recovery. I mean, I really miss them so much, and to think they're praying just for me... Maybe that's why they're parents yeah... And I had asked them to get me a Sherwani suit for deepavali. I mean, it costs a bomb to get one at Stylemart. Told them to find me a nice one there. Me and my fetish for clothes and footwear! Hahakz! As I'm typing this, I realise I've gotta leave for camp in 2 hours time. And that same sickening feeling starts to creep in... Will catch you guyz again soon... Take care ppl.

I've Finally Updated

Hey ppl! Hahakz! It's been more than 2 months since I last blogged. Hmmz, so where/what do I start with? NS life? Well, nothing much to say, I've been the admin clerk for the past 2 weeks due to my back injury. I've gotta admit that it's mentally straining... Tight deadlines, schedules that always seem to clash & etc. The guyz are gonna POP in 3 weeks. I might have to recourse in Tekong. Gotta mention that my bunk mates are awesome. They're the best anyone can ask for, helpful, caring and that strong feeling of brotherhood. I miz them so much, cos I'm in a different bunk now. I wouldn't term army life as enjoyable/wonderful. I mean, as for me, the only thing I look forward to in NS are my bunk mates. They're the reason why i've pulled through this far...

Here's a poem I wrote a week after enlisting for NS. (During the confinement period):

The countdown had already begun,

On the day of enlistment.

Not a night had passed,

But home was deeply missed.

Soon, family and sleep,

Were to follow suit.

Trainings are a dread,

But utterly intolerable,

Are the irritating idiots

In the platoon.

What otherwise would be

A long wait to book out,

Is now a dread and longing,

Never to be back... :-( (20/06/08)

Hehe! Well, I was extremely depressed the 1st few weeks. Just couldn't forget home, and being in a totally new, uncomfortable environment wasn't really helpful. 4 days later, I wrote another one...

For someone who's sensitive,

Very emotional and soft,

Came an unwelcomed gift,

In the form of National Service.

Too much was the agony to bear.

Too high was the level of stress.

It was no less than,

Being in a turmoil of confusion.

The only source of comfort,

Was hearing mum's voice at night.

It's no wonder that,

At the end of each conversation,

The eyes were never dry...:-( (24/06/08)

Enlisting On Friday...

Wonder if this is gonna be my last post before enlisting for NS on fri... This forceful obligation is taking its toll on me... It seriously is, given that I'm reacting differently(weirdly would be a more appropriate word) to the situations I'm facing. I could brush it off a severe anxiety or trepidations, but I know for myself that isn't the truth. As in, I know my inner feelings & they definitely aren't good at all.

I had a good laugh watching Kungfu Panda on Monday night! Brought my cousin Tharshan, and my sister came along. Had a good laugh. We sent the boy back, and took a stroll back home. It was almost close to 12am... Oh, we went for dinner before that. Aunt wanted to give me a treat before NS. The food was really good. Some restaurant in Orchard. I forgot the name, but the food was great! Enjoyed the day...

Met Vikku yesterday(Tuesday). It's been almost 2-3 years since I last saw him. He was cause for that slight jealousy as usual. Slim-skinny body frame, great hairstyle. Both of which I have never been able to associate myself with! Hahakz! Oh, and his punctuality could never have been better. I had to wait an hour before His Majesty arrived! It was the same case years ago... Sigh... That's an old story I wish would be rekindled. The saying is true: We only realise the value of a close friend after we've lost them. I mean, how could I possibly go up to someone I had already lost, & tell him/her "Can we be close again?". SIGH...

I met Vikku at AMK Hub, finally caught Indiana Jones & The Crystal Skull! Gotta thank God he didn't mind watching it, because the other idiots I asked simply termed it boring or not their cup of tea. The word "Boring"... It can be perceived in many ways. For instance: When you meet someone, & they tell you that they feel bored, do they really feel so? Or is it an indirect statement to say that you aren't entertaining enough? It always happens to me. It could be just that I think too much, or it could really be that I'm boring to be with. I believe I'm someone who's generally quiet. If I talk a little too much, isn't it just an effort to show I'm trying my best not to be boring?

I had many people I wanted to meet in mind(before enlisting), but.... the majority of them in the list weren't interested. Not something to blog proudly about, but I feel there isn't a necessity to portray a "Mr.Likeable/Mr.Popular" image. It's been more than a week since I met and spoke to my Bestie. Bestie? It's supposed to be the one who's closest to you, understands you in out, & is there for you All the time. I seriously do not know if I should even use that term becuase that's definitely Not what I am to him. If someone shows their disdain of you so openly, wouldn't it be sheer stupidity to continue harbouring hopes that you can hold on to them for long? I still maintain, I'd give my life for a true friend. The clause is... "TRUE". Unfortunately, the ones who deserved that from me chose to lose it themselves. I forged a friendship in a hope that there would be care & concern. If even that can't be shown, then calling that person a friend is a disgrace to the word itself. I still don't hate Anyone, I only hate myself for trusting these heartless fools blindly. I hate myself so much for not deciphering the code to the heart made of stone. It's My fault, for choosing to believe in those who didn't deserve a bit of it. What I took for genuine care & concern, turned out to be nothing but a well planned act. For all the tears I'm shedding, & for all the heartache I'm going through...... God's watching.

I harbour the ultimate hatred towards myself, because I bear all the heartaches in the end.

2 More Weeks....

I think those who "frequent" my blog would know by now, that I tend to take long breaks between my posts! Not something I'm proud of, definitely not, but it's just that there's a right time for everything. (Including updating of a blog.) After all, it's pointless to type paragraphs of historical recounts, when a mere sentence with the essential details would suffice.

Was supposed to meet Kabi today, but the yerumai was sick! (Hope you get well soon da!) Called his home, Uncle said the fever was at 38.6 degrees. It's not an issue at all. It's just that it's sickening when you're trying to spend as much time possible with people, but they're pre-occupied with their stuff. And it's either sheer co-incidence or the work of Fate, that someone only gets headaches, stomach-aches, intestine-aches & whatever-you-name-aches, ONLY when you're meeting them. I'm not gonna think too much about it anymore. And don't ever say I wasn't interested in the meetings, beecause I wouldn't hesitate to embarass or worse still, disgrace you at the given opportunity.

2 weeks more to go before the dreaded enlistment date... Was keen to spend time with certain people, but have decided to meet up with those who ask me to. It's much better that way, as my presence would be appreciated more....

Back After A Break...

Gosh! How quickly time flies... My last post was more than a month ago! Nah, it wasn't a delibrate break. I was really busy with work at NUS, Office of Corporate Relations, for the past 4 weeks. It was a great experience, but the journey was a killer...

Oh, and I received a great present from the Nation for my 21st Birthday. My Enlistment letter was the gift, enlistment on 13th of June. Lim Chu Kang Camp, Infantry Unit. Went to check out the camp, really far from home. Sigh... An Unwanted, Much Un-awaited, Much Depreciated Gift.

I wanted to type much more, but my mind seems blank suddenly. I'll continue soon...

Priceless Memories

Hey guyz! It's been some time. I'll start with the Genting trip! It was an awesome 4-day trip... Simply AWESOME! The 3 of us had so much fun! Uncle was cute & hilarious as usual, with his advices, experiences & everything. Kabi was the usual bestie. I mean, it wouldn't take a fool to know what happens when 2 besties go on a trip together. Great fun of course! Oh, but there was a little, coincidental, comical irony. Both of us were sick during the trip! Same symptoms, same illness. It was flu, running nose & sore throat. God, but we had a hell of a time. The night walks, talking in the canopy into the night, sipping coffee in the wee hours, the rides at the theme park, etc etc. Priceless memories that'll remain with me for the rest of my lifetime.

Uncle(kabi's dad), really is like a father figure to me. His advices, genuine care & concern, & most importantly, the way he understands me. He really knows me very well. Oh, and he ordered a gourmet cheesecake for me! Trust me, I know it definitley costs alot, close to $80, but he didn't allow me to pay for it. It's a gesture which meant so much to me. I mean, who spends that much on an edible item for someone who isn't related? Uncle is someone I'd want to look after, keep him happy during his golden years.

Oh, and I've been working for 2 days already! At a law firm, in International Plaza. The pay is Very low, but the staff are great. And boy is the view splendid! The office is in the 33rd storey, & they actually gave me the conference room to work in! Which means, it's the best room in the office, and overlooks the CBD skyscrapers. The view is just...... breathtaking.

I guess that's all for now. Dinner is calling out to me! Take care guyz.

Finished With My Nursing Course...

I've finally graduated from Nursing!!!!! YAY!!! Ok, I haven't officially graduated with receiving the certificate in a solemn ceremony, but, I've finished school! It seriously is a great personal achievement. I mean, all the troubles, hardships, exams & etc. We've finally made it. Well, it's the 1st week of holidays now, & I'm heading to Genting next week. Can't wait to wreck havoc there! LoL! Genting.... Here I Come! Hahakz!

Ok, so now that I've graduated, my additional burden includes finding a job. I mean, apart from the incessant hints, both direct & indirect from my parents, I personally see the need to work. It's not alwayz about the money, it has got to do with self-pride & character at times too... Next big headache, where to find a job? I mean, yes, I know there's this section in the papers called "Classified", but, there's more to job requirements then what's being advertised. I definitely wanna work with my bestie. We're at our best form after ages, it's only right to make use of the pleasant opportunities & situation.

The past few days have been terrific! I had so much fun with my best fren! Yeah, countless arguements in the past, misunderstandings & etc. But we've overcome everything & I hope it would last this way till the end...

Back After A Break...

HEY PPL! I'm back after a break! Ok I'll cut the crap... My previous post was like weeks ago? Hmmz... Anyways, was really busy with attachment! Night shift rocks! How I wish I would get the chance to do it all over once again... Sighs... Ward 39 is like the best ward I've been in CGH. Great staff, air-conditioned environment, what else can one ask for? It's only till next week, and I can no longer call myself a student. I'm gonna miss school, attachment, friends & etc...

I was super astonished when I read my tagboard. 2 intelligent asses, who apparently know each other I suppose(or maybe not), seem to agree that I'm emo. Or rather, to be precised, of the 2 who named themselves after colours, 1 said I'm like so emo, and the other said I'm so emotional for the slightest things. Well, they're definitely entitled to their own opinions. But, do the 2 intelligent souls actually know me that well enough to conclude stuff for themselves? Even the people who are close to me do not know/understand what's going on with me. I haven't been the sort to disclose every personal nitty gritty detail about my life's happenings to anyone that easily. Given such, would I even type anything I consider personal on my blog??? If you both came to that conclusions you have, based on the pathetic few posts I have written, then you're totally mistaken. For one, I definitely can't be editting my posts to ensure they don't seem emo or too emotional. I don't have the habit of re-reading what I've typed too... But, thanks for the comments though. I'm laughing right now at the irony... because Yellow & Green are 2 of my favourite colours! And 2 ppl who had to say whatever they did, had to choose those colours! LoL!

Note to my Bestie: It's not about the amount of time we both spend with each other that matters in a friendship. What matters most, is knowing that we both care for each other even if we haven't met up for years. That might sound sentimental, but it definitely isn't. You know the hell I'm going through da. You're the only one I chose to confide in. But, where are you at the point of time when you're needed most? Yes, I've got my fair share of brothers and friends to engage in a personal conversation with. But if that is gonna be the case, then why do I have a bestie for? I'm definitey not keen in being your Name-sake Bestie. Definitely not. Get it right. I don't see the need in being a priority in your life. But if I can't even expect care/concern from you, I really see no purpose in forging a lifelong friendship. Despite all the comedies that has happened between us, I still treat you as my bestie da. You know how arrogant and ignorant I can be, and you know how easily I dump people in my life when I deem them unworthy of any associations with me da. But I'm still shamelessly holding on to the friendship when you said you don't see the need to settle the issues between us. We've been through so much together da, but if you're still gonna be so complacent and ignorant...... I haven't forgotten the promises I made to you, it's really up to you now da.

Oh, and I met Darshu peiyi(Ghost) at CGH today! Was so good to see her after many months. Had a meal at LJS then we took a train back home. And she had to say I looked.... (Let's face it Shankar)... FAT! She tried to make up for it that I looked much better looking and cuter but, to no avail. I seriously think it's high time I stop eating too much. But it's gonna be hard, I love food too much to let go. Ah.... It's just size and weight. I've got far more important issues at hand to deal with. Hehehe!

Lastly to Green and Yellow, I'm sorry if I handled your criticisms badly. As much as I do respect your opinions, perhaps you guys should know me really well before forming impressions about me. Take care peeps.

To CGH Ward 39 on Mon...

Well, IMH posting was over on fri. It was a day I wished wouldn't come too soon, but, ALL good things come to an end eventually. I stress on the word "ALL"... I had mixed feelings/thoughts when I signed out there for the last time. Never would I be attached there as a student nurse again. There might be chances & opportunities to be there as a Patient or staff, but not as a student. I was someone who was waiting to be over & done with the course, but with time I just wish life as a student would never cease continuation. The advantage of the clinical lecturer to protect you, staff being nice to you, being taught new things. All these just passes as clouds, when you become a staff. Back-stabbing, standing for yourself with no protective guardian like a lecturer. And the only new things you learn are what you find out on your own. Differences as vast as the oceans... But I guess it's part & parcel of life, fate, destiny & anything else along those lines...

I've got mixed feelings about Monday too. Starting 4 weeks of attachment at CGH Ward39. God knows what's in store for me. A particular new addition to the group irks me to no known limits! That annoying size, back-stabbing hypocritical attitude! Hate him to the maximum! I pray, & thinking calmly, God might have a reason for having that ass in our group. Let's just see the game He's planned...

I'm gonna meet my Yerumai(Buffalo) tomorrow, Finally after like 8 weeks! Hopefully, it turns out well. Or should I even care if it turns out bad? Because it's good enough if we get to meet! I just don't want anything to go wrong. Both of us have been through alot emotionally & it's more than just taxing to the heart! The past has been rocky & thorny, it's only fair that the future is a bed of roses...(Maybe blue roses?) Haha!

The Long CNY break....

Had I blogged tomorrow, there would have been a week's interval between my posts! Hahakz! Anyways, the past 6 days were rather eventful. CNY visitings, gatherings, Great food, and definitely not forgetting my rather long arguments!

Finally got to flaunt That shirt on CNY! Hahakz! I was kinda waiting on my heels to wear it! I took those who saw me on that day by surprise, because I was wearing white bermudas! I decided to sport a casual look, since the rest of the population who'd be visiting would be decked in formals or their festive best. Surprisingly, I received positive comments on the way I dressed that day. I was ubber comfortable with the way I looked...(& that's super rare).

Note To My Bestie: Was really touched by whatever you said after our argument da. I mean, during your usual sleeping time, didn't expect to hear nice, touching, sentimental stuff from you. But after a long period, I knew that I was hearing things that was coming sincerely/genuinely from your heart. I'll alwayz be there for you da...

I must've piled up on extra kilos over the long break, because I was practically stuffing myself with food! From Pizza hut to fast-food, from CNY feasts to Birthday treats. Gosh! The weighing scale is my worst enemy now!

IMH posting is really fun & educational. I've learnt alot during these 2 days. Sadly, attachment there's coming to an end on friday. Will really miss the place alot, not forgetting some of the friendly & helpful staff.

Note to the person who said "IT" was my call: I really have got nothing more to say. I don't think you'd treat me any better. The way you speak to me & etc... It's hurting. I guess you've read my posts which I wrote from 2years back. I guess sincerity doesn't work these days. Well, I guess whatever I say wouldn't affect you in anyway either. I've decided Not to decide. If I'm a useless friend, or just an extra speck in your life, I've got no qualms about parting. Your decision.

Chinese New Year..

Happy Chinese New Year! It's the eve, & marks the start of a long break! YaY! IMH attachment was really tiring today, even though it ended at 10.30am. I had to bathe 47 patients! Thank god Arthur was there. But it was a great experience though. An experience that would make me a better nurse for the years to come...

I have been looking at things very differently recently. I've begun to understand & accept things whenever they go wrong. A bad incident actually teaches us a valuable lesson. As they say: Once bitten, twice shy. An embarassing incident, or one that puts us in a bad light, actually humbles us greatly. Shankar's talking about humbling experiences. God! How I've changed...

And to the person who assured me that I'd have company on the phone back from IMH: It's not the 1st time u're not keeping to your word... Definitely not. Guess I've been very patient with you. Was just telling you on monday night about settling issues & you sticking to what you say. Unforunately, whatever I said must have fell upon deaf ears. Or rather, practically & sensibly speaking, Sleeping ears... You claim to care & bother about whatever's happening between us. Is this how you support your claim? I really don't know what to do or say. I don't even know if you're being true to me. If I'm nobody to you, & mean nothing at all to you, you've gotta tell it straight to me or I'll never know. MEAN WHAT YOU SAY. It'll solve many problems... I'm leaving it to you.

It's Chinese New Year visiting tomorrow! Should be heading to the temple 1st, then it's off to my aunts' dwellings. But being so fickle & in the midst of unexplainable mood swings, I might just choose to stay home and rot & sulk. Or maybe not, I'd be out to have fun in the name of celebration & reunion. It'd be a chance to flaunt my new designer shirt as well! For goodness sake Shankar, It's Chinese New Year! Hahaha!

To IMH On Monday...

"Hey!" to all reading my post. Attachment ended at Ward 38 on thurs. It was a great ward actually. The Sister was great, really encouraging & motivating. Learnt alot, especially since it was a cardiac ward(Medical conditions to do with the heart). We went back to sch for SIMS training yesterday. I had to do role-play for every scenario! Darn my luck! But I enjoyed Mrs.Joanna Tang's session the most. Didn't know she was capable of so much comedy! Starting attachment at IMH on Mon, 2 weeks of travel headache again. Sigh... It's a great place to work in, but the distance to travel is a drawback. Almost similar to the experience of KKH. But if given a choice to work between IMH or KKH, I would choose the latter... IMH posting is gonna be real fun! If only they paid us, it'll be cause for double happiness...

I was supposed to be fully occupied during the weekend. But I'm super free now. The reason? I cancelled all my meeting plans with my frenz, for NO apparent reason! Just felt the sudden urge to be reclusive & isolated. It's kinda scary, because I feel like i'm becoming more like how I used to be. Arrogant, quiet & totally ignorant about anyone or anything. I'm not heartless though, I felt really bad when my frenz were asking the reason for my sudden cancellation of plans. How could I possibly say I'm just plainly uninterested? "I just can't make it", was my curt reply to all I had spoken to or who had questioned my decision. Painful, but I didn't have a choice...

This paragraph is for the 2 asses who claimed to be hurt because I'm ignoring them: I just don't see the point or any need to care about the feelings of people who have got no regard for me. Whatever you said might have been in a fit of anger or an accidental slip. Whatever you both said, delibrately or accidentally, is of no matter to me. I have made up my mind, that I don't wanna have anything to do with you both. That's it. I have already made clear my decision in this paragraph especially for the both of you. I consider both your phone calls and smses a parasitical nuisance! I'm not tolerating Anymore of such nonsenses, & don't blame me for whatever that comes out of my mouth If you try to approach me in public hereafter. You know how sharp my tongue can be. It's time to part. Take care, & goodbye.

It's CNY next week! Kinda looking forward to the long break. And not forgetting the goodies & red packets. Can't wait! I guess I've typed a little too much, because my fingers are feeling strained! Hehe! Till my next post, take care people. :-P

A Memorable Saturday Evening...

"Hi" to whoever's reading... Had so much fun last evening, & night as well! Met Rachel at 6.10pm at tampines mrt. I was a little late, as I took a little extra time comtemplating which footwear to wear. It's not like I have many pairs of them, but it's just that I wanted to make sure I had the most matching pair on! So after Rachel had given me a piece of her mind for my 10 minute delay, we boarded to train to City hall. That was where we were supposed to meet Amrita. Amrita claimed that she was a station away when she smsed me. We were about 4 stations away. When we finally reached, Amrita said she was still a station away! Rachel & I agreed that the girl was doing some comedy. I turned to my right, & CityLink Mall was calling out to me! My feet turned in that direction automatically, & Rachel followed suit. Thanx to Amrita's punctuality, I bought a pair of slip-ons from Beetle Bug! It was Rachel's choice, & was really unique and nice. Liked it alot.

We met Amrita & headed to Riverwalk Tandoor. Rachel & I had been starving the whole day just to have dinner there! Amrita was laughing in disbelief when she heard that. The food was delicious, the aroma was mouth-watering, the ambience perfect. Great dinner: The garlic naan, with tandoori chicken & fish tikka. Ghee rice with aloo gobi, mutton chops & so many other delicious side dishes. Desert was sago & gulab jamun. Pure heaven!! Can't wait to go again some other time. After dinner, it was a slow walk around boat quay & clarke quay. Walked till Fullerton Hotel to take pictures. Rachel wanted to sip coffee, so we walked back to City Hall. The 3 of us shared a caramel-butterscotch latte & a cookies-and-cream ice blend. Had it at Gloria Jean's... It was indeed a great day out. I was spending time with people I was really comfortable with after such a long time. Pleasant memories to keep with me...

What A "Fair" World...

It all happened because of a tag. Why Vikku? I mean, you apparently asked me to call. And for all I know, I get a large dose of your scolding! And you said, "You're not taking rights on me the way I want you to..." How on earth do you expect me to take rights on you when you don't even treat me as someone close to you? Leave that aside. You and I know what we were like before, & what I really think of you. Given that, shouldn't you at least think how it would be for me to speak to you normally? You just shoot that I don't care to listen to what you say. Did you ever stop to think how it would have been like for me for 2years without anyone to listen or explain myself to? And when I smsed you telling you of the problems & difficulties I faced, what was your curt reply? Do you even care for me in the 1st place for me to take rights on you? Have you any idea how hurting it is? How would you anyways... Can't blame you as well. EVERYONE is the same.

EVERYONE says: Shankar is the one who is always saying the most hurtful things sarcastically. Shankar is arrogant & snobby. Shankar only cares about himself & etc. But did any one of the asses who blamed me for all of the above, ever once stopped to think how Shankar feels? Did anyone stop to realise that Shankar has a heart too? NO!!! But when you people do the same, I'm supposed to accept you for the way you are. But you'll have problems with me, continue condemning me & I shouldn't say anything in defence. What a "FAIR" world!

Gift For Being A True Friend...

I'm really not in the mood for salutations to Anyone! Or should I just admit that, I'm not very fine myself to extend that question to anyone? Cheats, Lies, Decept... What else am I supposed to face? It's alright to hate people who are distant to you. But I'm beginning to hate those who're really close to me.(Or at least, those whom I thought to be so...) I'm even including those whom I'm CLOSELY related to/bonded to by blood!!
When you can't even trust those whom you're super close to, that's when insecurities & complexities set in. Relationships, however important they are, all depend on the basic emotion called "trust". When you can't trust the people you love, let alone like, life becomes so meaningless. Why be successful and rich, when you can't even share that sense of happiness or achievement with a Trustworthy soul??
I'm someone who gives superior priority to friendship, having ruined a 3year&4 month relationship just for that once-upon-a-time best fren. I've definitely got the rights to talk about people who call themselves My friends. How many of those whom acknowledge me as one of their "gang" can safely say they've been a TRUE friend to me? I'm including the asses who read posts from my blog & question me about it as if they know everything about me! I'm hinting at no one in particular, but it's just that agitation that no one, not one single ass is truthful to me. I mean, these ass-heads need me to listen to their problems & about whatever that interests them. I've gotta be free for lunch & dinner meetings at the shortest notice. Be it guy frenz or gal frenz, I've gotta put up with the wierd & ridiculous behaviours of their lovers, but that's not the worse yet. My meeting plans with these frenz, or should I say A particular friend, has to be catered to their romantic meeting schedules! Sickening! Do anything, meet or even sleep with anyone for all I care! Just don't ruin the plans I made, or lead me on with false hopes people! Spare me... The least you guyz could do for the "ALL" that i've given you, is just That...

Oh, but I can say one thing in common about ALL these asses who call themselves my frenz. They can hurt me all they want, say the nastiest & most heart-breaking words imaginable, ruin my happiness in the worst possible way, cause me the greatest grievance & last but not least, Shatter my beautiful dream of friendship.... But I'm not even given the right to have the slightest say in anything that concerns them. Not even the slightest rights to say the most trivial opinion or thought. Is this what I get for being a true friend to all, without the slightest pretence? Is this the gift I receive, for being selfless & putting friendship before anything else?

The tears always flow, but there'd never be anyone's fingers to wipe them away....

Issues That Matter...

"Hey!" to whoever's reading.... :) It's sunday: that special weekend day where many unwind, half-heartedly though, as the next morning would mean work/sch/attachment or whatever may be! But to me, the end of today would mean not seeing someone for more than 3 weeks. It wouldn't be a matter if it's any other ass, but what if it turns out to be your best fren??? It's really hard when u care for those who don't care about u. It's even harder when u think about people who don't give 2 hoods about u. Imagine showing love, care & compassion to a heartless or non-living thing(or a human being who behaves like one). Can't picture it? I've had that experience. People whom u love the most taking u for granted & hurting your feelings at every opporunity? I've been there too. A person whom u think the world of despising you to no known extent? Have experienced that too. The worse thing is, whoever is concerned just doesn't bother about what's happening. It's easy for u to say "I don't care.." or "I just can't be bothered..", but only I know the hell I'm burning in. The next relationship to motherhood which doesn't expect anything in return, is Friendship. I seriously do believe I've been a good fren to all my frenz. I even feel i was a great bestie. Why is it that every other ass I know treats me much better than you do? I wouldn't be sulking if it was them, much less talk about it, because the majority of them don't matter to me. The main problem is that it's u we're talking about. You know how much I treasure & cherish you. I may not be yours, but you're my Bestie da, Mine... Can't just let a friendship go like that, it might be of no matter nor considerable issue to you, but our friendship means alot to me. Why can't we just be like how we were, instead of letting other asses spoil & break things up? The most sickening irony is that we argue because of others most of the time. The perception problem which u claim I have, is just a plain, utterly redundant excuse for the way you've been treating me da. Cummon... I wouldn't bother about this friendship in the 1st place if I see no point in it. We definitely can make it through da. It's not about proving to those who thought we won't be frenz for long. It's about realising the true worth of our friendship, & proving it to ourselves. I know you hate sentiments, but I just wanna say that, I really love u as my bestie & miz u loadz da... It's really really up to u now da. Take care.

Feelings & Expressions...

Shankar says "hi" to whoever is reading his blog. KKH posting's over. Back to dreaded CGH, & i stress on the word dreaded. It's only been a day, but i'm already missing the babies & kids in ward 66. Tyrants or angels, they're still the same adorable bundles of joy. Hope they all get well soon.
How did i spend my day? Woke up with a wonderful mood in the morning to my bestie's call, but unfortunately someone just had to send an sms & call me awhile later to screw my mood! Dumping that aside, i had subway for lunch!! Was craving badly for it & for the past week my frenz had to put up wif my incessant description of sandwiches & cookies! I finally had them!!! picture this, Cookies fresh from the oven: peanut butter & white choc macadamia. Pure heaven!
(If shankar ever complains about his ever-increasing weight, u'll noe he only has his passion for food & eating to be blamed!!)
Went shopping with selva, got gifts for his mum's bdae. i got a shirt for myself, it had been ages since i shopped! My Parents' wedding anniversary's around the corner. Got dad a shirt, mum's gift is still pending. Sis' bdae is 4 days later, she has an expensive want-list! God bless my wallet & bank balance!
It's 2.15am. Don't think i'll receive the call i'm waiting for. My bed & comforter seems very inviting, & my pillows/bolsters are calling out to my head & body respectively! Haha! Time to yawn & say Nitey Nitez... Bye!

Last Day At KKH...

A big "Hi!" to whoever is reading this... Hmmz, tml is the last day of attachment at kkh, i'm gonna miz the ward loadz. The babies & kids, who are so cute & adorable, gripping on to u tightly when u carry them, hugging u innocently or the occasional peck on the cheek when u're finishing shift. Or the toothless smiles they give u after changing their diapers... priceless experience. The past 2 weeks have increased my interest & desires to be a father! Hehe! But again, they're babies & children. Innocent or naive, watever u call it. They're yet to have grown & be accustomed to a coursed world, where they'd eventually be robbed of what they were born with... "innocence"...
Imagine my greatest shock.... People are actually reading my blog! i mean, the countless queries i had about my posts from so many people... People reading shankar's blog?!? Shankar is surprised himself too!! Well, i've since recovered from the shock. i mean, it's no matter to me even if there's no single soul who reads it anyways...
Am so tempted to start typing essays here, but i'm gonna reserve that for the weekends... Take care till then...

To Whoever Is Reading This...

I alwayz start my posts with "Hey all!".... But i've decided to put a stop to it, cos i've began to wonder how many people would the word "all" refer to!! Which means to say, i doubt there'd be anyone who would be interested in reading my... let's face the fact... boring pieces of recollection! So my future posts would begin beautifully with, "To Whoever Is Reading This...". Has that personal touch to it, doesn't it? Sounds more genuine too...
Attachment has started. KKH is pretty fun! i love babies & kids, so kinda enjoying the posting. but the only dread i have about this posting, is doing morning shift!! i gotta be up by 4.15 am, latest would be 4.30am!! Then it's an hour of bathing, grooming, dressing & i've gotta be outta my home by 5.30am!! It doesn't help a bit that the bus journey takes 3/4 of a precious hour! sighs.... but tat's the only thing i'm complaining about. *grin*
I was wondering why my interest in blogging was rekindled. I mean, i didn't bother about my blog for more than a year, then why the sudden surge in interest? I didn't have to crack my head to know the reason, for it was kinda obvious. I've decided to put the trust & faith i had in people, in my blog... I mean, whatever is my blog capable of doing, that would cause me a tremendous heartbreak or emotional breakdown? I've had enough of human beings. a bunch of selfish creatures, who would do & lose anything to attain whatever they desire. I mean, the things which people do in the name of love, friendship, relationship & whatever other bonds in the world there is, seems to be only for their gain. Or it could just be that.... I don't wanna have contact with people anymore. Bonds with non-living objects seem to last a lifetime....