A Memorable Saturday Evening...

"Hi" to whoever's reading... Had so much fun last evening, & night as well! Met Rachel at 6.10pm at tampines mrt. I was a little late, as I took a little extra time comtemplating which footwear to wear. It's not like I have many pairs of them, but it's just that I wanted to make sure I had the most matching pair on! So after Rachel had given me a piece of her mind for my 10 minute delay, we boarded to train to City hall. That was where we were supposed to meet Amrita. Amrita claimed that she was a station away when she smsed me. We were about 4 stations away. When we finally reached, Amrita said she was still a station away! Rachel & I agreed that the girl was doing some comedy. I turned to my right, & CityLink Mall was calling out to me! My feet turned in that direction automatically, & Rachel followed suit. Thanx to Amrita's punctuality, I bought a pair of slip-ons from Beetle Bug! It was Rachel's choice, & was really unique and nice. Liked it alot.

We met Amrita & headed to Riverwalk Tandoor. Rachel & I had been starving the whole day just to have dinner there! Amrita was laughing in disbelief when she heard that. The food was delicious, the aroma was mouth-watering, the ambience perfect. Great dinner: The garlic naan, with tandoori chicken & fish tikka. Ghee rice with aloo gobi, mutton chops & so many other delicious side dishes. Desert was sago & gulab jamun. Pure heaven!! Can't wait to go again some other time. After dinner, it was a slow walk around boat quay & clarke quay. Walked till Fullerton Hotel to take pictures. Rachel wanted to sip coffee, so we walked back to City Hall. The 3 of us shared a caramel-butterscotch latte & a cookies-and-cream ice blend. Had it at Gloria Jean's... It was indeed a great day out. I was spending time with people I was really comfortable with after such a long time. Pleasant memories to keep with me...

What A "Fair" World...

It all happened because of a tag. Why Vikku? I mean, you apparently asked me to call. And for all I know, I get a large dose of your scolding! And you said, "You're not taking rights on me the way I want you to..." How on earth do you expect me to take rights on you when you don't even treat me as someone close to you? Leave that aside. You and I know what we were like before, & what I really think of you. Given that, shouldn't you at least think how it would be for me to speak to you normally? You just shoot that I don't care to listen to what you say. Did you ever stop to think how it would have been like for me for 2years without anyone to listen or explain myself to? And when I smsed you telling you of the problems & difficulties I faced, what was your curt reply? Do you even care for me in the 1st place for me to take rights on you? Have you any idea how hurting it is? How would you anyways... Can't blame you as well. EVERYONE is the same.

EVERYONE says: Shankar is the one who is always saying the most hurtful things sarcastically. Shankar is arrogant & snobby. Shankar only cares about himself & etc. But did any one of the asses who blamed me for all of the above, ever once stopped to think how Shankar feels? Did anyone stop to realise that Shankar has a heart too? NO!!! But when you people do the same, I'm supposed to accept you for the way you are. But you'll have problems with me, continue condemning me & I shouldn't say anything in defence. What a "FAIR" world!

Gift For Being A True Friend...

I'm really not in the mood for salutations to Anyone! Or should I just admit that, I'm not very fine myself to extend that question to anyone? Cheats, Lies, Decept... What else am I supposed to face? It's alright to hate people who are distant to you. But I'm beginning to hate those who're really close to me.(Or at least, those whom I thought to be so...) I'm even including those whom I'm CLOSELY related to/bonded to by blood!!
When you can't even trust those whom you're super close to, that's when insecurities & complexities set in. Relationships, however important they are, all depend on the basic emotion called "trust". When you can't trust the people you love, let alone like, life becomes so meaningless. Why be successful and rich, when you can't even share that sense of happiness or achievement with a Trustworthy soul??
I'm someone who gives superior priority to friendship, having ruined a 3year&4 month relationship just for that once-upon-a-time best fren. I've definitely got the rights to talk about people who call themselves My friends. How many of those whom acknowledge me as one of their "gang" can safely say they've been a TRUE friend to me? I'm including the asses who read posts from my blog & question me about it as if they know everything about me! I'm hinting at no one in particular, but it's just that agitation that no one, not one single ass is truthful to me. I mean, these ass-heads need me to listen to their problems & about whatever that interests them. I've gotta be free for lunch & dinner meetings at the shortest notice. Be it guy frenz or gal frenz, I've gotta put up with the wierd & ridiculous behaviours of their lovers, but that's not the worse yet. My meeting plans with these frenz, or should I say A particular friend, has to be catered to their romantic meeting schedules! Sickening! Do anything, meet or even sleep with anyone for all I care! Just don't ruin the plans I made, or lead me on with false hopes people! Spare me... The least you guyz could do for the "ALL" that i've given you, is just That...

Oh, but I can say one thing in common about ALL these asses who call themselves my frenz. They can hurt me all they want, say the nastiest & most heart-breaking words imaginable, ruin my happiness in the worst possible way, cause me the greatest grievance & last but not least, Shatter my beautiful dream of friendship.... But I'm not even given the right to have the slightest say in anything that concerns them. Not even the slightest rights to say the most trivial opinion or thought. Is this what I get for being a true friend to all, without the slightest pretence? Is this the gift I receive, for being selfless & putting friendship before anything else?

The tears always flow, but there'd never be anyone's fingers to wipe them away....

Issues That Matter...

"Hey!" to whoever's reading.... :) It's sunday: that special weekend day where many unwind, half-heartedly though, as the next morning would mean work/sch/attachment or whatever may be! But to me, the end of today would mean not seeing someone for more than 3 weeks. It wouldn't be a matter if it's any other ass, but what if it turns out to be your best fren??? It's really hard when u care for those who don't care about u. It's even harder when u think about people who don't give 2 hoods about u. Imagine showing love, care & compassion to a heartless or non-living thing(or a human being who behaves like one). Can't picture it? I've had that experience. People whom u love the most taking u for granted & hurting your feelings at every opporunity? I've been there too. A person whom u think the world of despising you to no known extent? Have experienced that too. The worse thing is, whoever is concerned just doesn't bother about what's happening. It's easy for u to say "I don't care.." or "I just can't be bothered..", but only I know the hell I'm burning in. The next relationship to motherhood which doesn't expect anything in return, is Friendship. I seriously do believe I've been a good fren to all my frenz. I even feel i was a great bestie. Why is it that every other ass I know treats me much better than you do? I wouldn't be sulking if it was them, much less talk about it, because the majority of them don't matter to me. The main problem is that it's u we're talking about. You know how much I treasure & cherish you. I may not be yours, but you're my Bestie da, Mine... Can't just let a friendship go like that, it might be of no matter nor considerable issue to you, but our friendship means alot to me. Why can't we just be like how we were, instead of letting other asses spoil & break things up? The most sickening irony is that we argue because of others most of the time. The perception problem which u claim I have, is just a plain, utterly redundant excuse for the way you've been treating me da. Cummon... I wouldn't bother about this friendship in the 1st place if I see no point in it. We definitely can make it through da. It's not about proving to those who thought we won't be frenz for long. It's about realising the true worth of our friendship, & proving it to ourselves. I know you hate sentiments, but I just wanna say that, I really love u as my bestie & miz u loadz da... It's really really up to u now da. Take care.

Feelings & Expressions...

Shankar says "hi" to whoever is reading his blog. KKH posting's over. Back to dreaded CGH, & i stress on the word dreaded. It's only been a day, but i'm already missing the babies & kids in ward 66. Tyrants or angels, they're still the same adorable bundles of joy. Hope they all get well soon.
How did i spend my day? Woke up with a wonderful mood in the morning to my bestie's call, but unfortunately someone just had to send an sms & call me awhile later to screw my mood! Dumping that aside, i had subway for lunch!! Was craving badly for it & for the past week my frenz had to put up wif my incessant description of sandwiches & cookies! I finally had them!!! picture this, Cookies fresh from the oven: peanut butter & white choc macadamia. Pure heaven!
(If shankar ever complains about his ever-increasing weight, u'll noe he only has his passion for food & eating to be blamed!!)
Went shopping with selva, got gifts for his mum's bdae. i got a shirt for myself, it had been ages since i shopped! My Parents' wedding anniversary's around the corner. Got dad a shirt, mum's gift is still pending. Sis' bdae is 4 days later, she has an expensive want-list! God bless my wallet & bank balance!
It's 2.15am. Don't think i'll receive the call i'm waiting for. My bed & comforter seems very inviting, & my pillows/bolsters are calling out to my head & body respectively! Haha! Time to yawn & say Nitey Nitez... Bye!

Last Day At KKH...

A big "Hi!" to whoever is reading this... Hmmz, tml is the last day of attachment at kkh, i'm gonna miz the ward loadz. The babies & kids, who are so cute & adorable, gripping on to u tightly when u carry them, hugging u innocently or the occasional peck on the cheek when u're finishing shift. Or the toothless smiles they give u after changing their diapers... priceless experience. The past 2 weeks have increased my interest & desires to be a father! Hehe! But again, they're babies & children. Innocent or naive, watever u call it. They're yet to have grown & be accustomed to a coursed world, where they'd eventually be robbed of what they were born with... "innocence"...
Imagine my greatest shock.... People are actually reading my blog! i mean, the countless queries i had about my posts from so many people... People reading shankar's blog?!? Shankar is surprised himself too!! Well, i've since recovered from the shock. i mean, it's no matter to me even if there's no single soul who reads it anyways...
Am so tempted to start typing essays here, but i'm gonna reserve that for the weekends... Take care till then...

To Whoever Is Reading This...

I alwayz start my posts with "Hey all!".... But i've decided to put a stop to it, cos i've began to wonder how many people would the word "all" refer to!! Which means to say, i doubt there'd be anyone who would be interested in reading my... let's face the fact... boring pieces of recollection! So my future posts would begin beautifully with, "To Whoever Is Reading This...". Has that personal touch to it, doesn't it? Sounds more genuine too...
Attachment has started. KKH is pretty fun! i love babies & kids, so kinda enjoying the posting. but the only dread i have about this posting, is doing morning shift!! i gotta be up by 4.15 am, latest would be 4.30am!! Then it's an hour of bathing, grooming, dressing & i've gotta be outta my home by 5.30am!! It doesn't help a bit that the bus journey takes 3/4 of a precious hour! sighs.... but tat's the only thing i'm complaining about. *grin*
I was wondering why my interest in blogging was rekindled. I mean, i didn't bother about my blog for more than a year, then why the sudden surge in interest? I didn't have to crack my head to know the reason, for it was kinda obvious. I've decided to put the trust & faith i had in people, in my blog... I mean, whatever is my blog capable of doing, that would cause me a tremendous heartbreak or emotional breakdown? I've had enough of human beings. a bunch of selfish creatures, who would do & lose anything to attain whatever they desire. I mean, the things which people do in the name of love, friendship, relationship & whatever other bonds in the world there is, seems to be only for their gain. Or it could just be that.... I don't wanna have contact with people anymore. Bonds with non-living objects seem to last a lifetime....