hi ppl... hope all of u r fine. well, i said on my very 1st post itself that i'm gonna be using this as a means to vent my anger & frustrations. i also did mention that i would be as indirect where possible. but if u r too intelligent & can always find out who or what i'm referring to, then i guess it's just an added advantage for u. but if u r gonna take tat as a means for u to question me, then i'm terribly sorry. i dun see the need to explain myself. i do have my own personal comments at times, & it's not a must i've gotta let the whole world know wat i'm thinking!! i am sacarstic, ugly, stupid. yes, i dun deny tat. but weren't u the one who befriended me in the 1st place?? where was ur eyes & "intelligent" senses when u approached me? i really dun think i was any different at that time! u r just making a fool of urself. i have got nothing to lose. anyway, i would rather be labelled a "loner" than to be associated with an inhumane being like u! gosh! u just give me the creeps... i've got issues. so does each and everyone of us. we can't be sharing everything to everyone. it's the same with love, friendship & etc. u may love someone to such great depths, but u can't expect or be sure that the person would love u to the same extent. it's sheer luck. it's gotta be it. if not, i wouldn't be sitting here voicing my unhapiness to an object that would never converse!! sigh... i really dunno if i should change myself. i mean, if i'm expected to change for the better, wat do u want me to change? my looks department can't be helped. but i know i've been pretty outspoken lately. if u guyz prefer the shankar who was soo quiet & silent, i have no qualms changing back. in fact, i may have more peace if i shut myself from this harsh & unforgiving world.. not forgetting to mention the "wonderful" beings who strive to make their presence felt. i haven't been happy for a long time. even if i was, it was shortlived. i'm alwayz confused & worrying abt stuff. just hope i wouldn't have to call IMH(institute of mental health) my home anytime soon! would there ever be a day when my post is a happy one? one that is free from unhappiness & anger???