OMG! I had soooooo much fun today! Why?? Cos I went SHOPPING! Haha! Well, it was the 1st time I was hanging out with Nadiah & Jae out of school. (They're my seniors at Uni btw). I didn't think it was gonna be sucha blast! We seriously had a thing for shopping! We just seemed to be able to connect and I guess that's the most important thing when it comes to hanging out with people...
We went to Harbourtown, it was my 1st visit there. Boy was it a good shopping trip. I ended up with 4 pairs of sandals, 2 bottles of perfume, 4 shirts and... I'm lazy to type the rest. We were literally encouraging one another to shop, with all the motivation whenever each one of us stepped up from the changing room! We had fish & chips and Kebabs for lunch/dinner. Awesome food, & an awesome day out...
My intention wasn't to rattle on and on about the shopping trip. I couldn't believe that I finally went out with people after 2months++ of going out alone to shop & etc. It's overwhelming, really. When I got home, I started to tear... I felt so vulnerable to loneliness in a foreign country. And lonely I've felt for so long.
I do know myself well. How long I take to get to know people, how long I take to get close to them. It's not that I'm being extra uptight these days, but the last ordeal I went through with one person, seems to have permanently changed my opinions about getting close to people, or let alone, trusting them. It's so wrong to just come to a general conclusion/conception about people after a horrible experience with one, but I just can't help it. It was too much to bear, whatever I went through... Seems to be futile to attempt to leave the whole incident behind.You just can't. It's never possible to leave the ones whom we cared so much for. God knows how they do it so easily... Do I wish I was like them?? Definitely Not. I mean, I'd rather have character and work on having a beautiful inside, than to display characters like those as*es, which will shame their mums. But then, it's a totally different issue, if the mums in question seem to have questionable characters themselves. Talk about upbringing... :-p
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