Things Aren't Good....

Hey ppl. Hope you're all doing good. If you're not into reading about sad recounts of recent happenings in my life, pls give this post a miss...

Things aren't good, aren't good at all...

The major tragedy in my life(not concerning human beings), is currently Pulau Tekong! Being a medic there is the worse thing one can ask for. Countless duties, covers, back-stabbing, politics, seniors with the same rank bullying the juniors,(we're definitely much knowledgeable!) & etc. It's taking its toll, it seriously is... I feel like checking into Hougang Chalet, think it would be in my best interest, to my best benefit...

The other major tragedy? This time concerning humans! The ones whom are associated with me... Ok honestly, I should be saying: The ones whom I'm associated with, since I'm the one clinging on.
Who do I start with? My bestie maadu who is seemingly becoming the ignorant ass he was? Or the pretty girl who doesn't know what she wants in life? Or the aquaintances who are seemingly(I stress on the word seemingly) showing much care & concern?

I'm definitely not gonna complain about Kabi. I know myself, & how good I am at effortlessly driving ppl up the wall. I guess he's just had about enough shit with me. I'm forever lamenting about NS, while he basks in the glory of serving the nation. 2 totally different perspectives, which boils down to 2 TOTALLY different characters. The question is definitely not about who deserves the other's friendship, but more about the purpose & life of It as a whole. My defence mechanism is functioning perfectly well. If my friendship is UNWANTED/UNAPPRECIATED, shouldn't I be staying away as far as possible to prevent self-degradation & embarassment? He's clearly displaying to me his discontent, & he knows I'm not a fool to not even read the slightest imprints of sarcasm or ignorance between the 5 lines of the sms. I asked many days ago if we were gonna play the game of not keeping in contact for a long period of time again. I haven't gotten a reply since... And, Shankar is tired of hanging on... The grip is loosening.

Pretty gal? Once again, it's a personal issue I wouldn't dwell into. Let that story be a permanent imprint in a Personal Diary...

I'm not brushing them off, but the aquaintances are not worthy of mention just yet. I mean, anyone would be alarmed at out-of-the-way gestures & concerns by people whom are a relative unknown! With my closest friendship at stake, I'm definitely not confidently gonna get close with just any passing speck in my life. It's gonna take a very long time, & if I lose the battle of Friendship, EVERYONE becomes a passing cloud, with No exceptions.

Imagine being lonely, or left to be alone, when you need Someone most.
Shame On You...